Maybe I should just blast my brains out
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Thread Topic: Maybe I should just blast my brains out
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I'm such a f---ing mess.
I can't take this anymore.I just can't.I'm tired of always being that weird guy, that awkward guy who can't have a simple f---ing conversation, I hate being that socially awkward f---head who brings everyone else down.I'm not good at ANYTHING.I just want to die right now.Today as I was standing outside being useless I just hoped that f---ing I'd be struck by lightening or get f---ing shot because I'm tired of living.Tired of living with this struggle within myself, I can't connect with anybody, the one person I can connect with just so happens to be the life of the party who everyone he knows thinks I'm such a freak.I can seee it when they look at me, he can do so much better, he's wasting his time with me, I'm bringing him down...and the sad part is I couldn't agree more.I've thought about breaking up with him then killing myself afterwards just end it.I want to die so badly right now...but part of me would miss him....I f---ing love him and I want to stay alive for him but I feel so...worthless to him.Funny thing is he has no idea about all this, he's too nice to see the pain Im feeling, all the stares his friends and family give me.. -
Funny thing is I wish he was with me right now...I want to talk to him about this right now, I can't get a hold of him...
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I can guarantee you that he does see them. He ignores them because you're more important. Take care of yourself so you can take care of each other, Jade.
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meerkat Noviceive been in the same situation...but worse.worse.
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Don't you say "worse". Who the bloody f---ing hell do you think you are?
Jade, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. I'm so sorry you're in pain, but you matter, you're not useless. I hope this gets better for you soon, because when it gets brighter, it's going to be much easier for you to see how important you are. -
Meerkat, I doubt that you've had it "worse". When someone is in pain, you don't try to raise the bar of who had a more unfortunate situation, because that's f---ing conceited.
Jade, I'm so sorry this is happening to you. You know, if you do need anybody to talk to, I'm here, Maru's here, Selena's here, and everybody else is here. We would miss you. We care. You're not worthless. -
Jade, I need you to know just how cared about and important you are in this world. People like you give me hope that there is still are good hearted, awesome people left. I know you're going through so much pain right now and I pray that it gets better. Just know that you truly are loved and that losing you would be painful to so many, especially your boyfriend. I really think you should tell him how you feel because if he is the right person for you he'll want to be there to help you through it.
I had to write something because you need to know just how much you are valued by those who have truly gotten the chance to know you. Screw what other people think, as long as you live you will be a person worth knowing and calling friend. Stay strong, bro. -
Yeah what she said.
No really man
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