So people have been saying I've changed...
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Thread Topic: So people have been saying I've changed...
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And...there's a lot of different reasons why I have. But you guys are right, I'll probably feel much better if I talk about it...
I guess I can't really share everything that's going on but I'll start with this: suffocation is one of my biggest fears. Not just death in general, specifically suffocation and because of it I have a phobia I've never told anyone about. (And by the way it's very inconvenient to have -_- XD) I don't want to reveal what it is, but...
Anyway I never really thought much of it until a few weeks ago when my parents were talking about some medical things I've been through as a child...there was a (very small but still risky) possibility of me having cancer so I got some sort of surgery (I still don't even f---ing know what it was, I was really young and they won't f---ing tell me -.-) and...I now remember clearly the reason I'm so afraid of suffocation...so that's been a little upsetting I guess..
I also had a seizure (apparently o.o) when I was very young but that's not why I'm upset, really...I don't know if I actually have an anxiety disorder or actual panic attacks but they're starting to happen a lot more often and it's..nnhh...
I don't think of the medical stuff a lot because I thought it hadn't really affected me but I'm starting to realize now that it really has... Also I'm scared that I'm going to end up doing dumb s--- because of my panic attacks or whatever the hell they are..
And my parents don't know about any of this....I don't trust them I guess. I have certain reasons that I can't tell them, so..
Actually, idk why I typed all that because I'm not even upset over the medical s--- to be honest .__. I guess I can't talk about why I'm actually upset so..
I guess maybe I'm scared about the baby..? No, I shouldn't get into that, I don't want to talk about the abortion...
I could go into more medical stuff but that's not even what I'm upset about or why I've changed so.
...So maybe that's not why I'm sad but usually that's why I'm scared. Mainly because of thebabymedical issues. I don't really have a right to complain though, since people here go through worse things and...well, yeah.
But yeah there's that...thanks for reading this, if anyone does... -
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your pregant..?
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*Hugs* Thanks...
WAIT WHAT SCAR?! -
Well then..
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Thank you for sharing some of your worries.
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Thanks for caring about them, Luna... :)
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wait a minute oH WAIT HOLY s--- GUYS I'M NOT PREGNANT!!! I WORDED THAT TERRIBLY OMFG
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ARE YOU CARRING A MINI EVA.
Do you have a bun in the oven
Did your goose get cooked?
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You're welcome. What are friends for? :)
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Dear lord Eva.
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SCAR I AM NOT PREGNANT OMFG XDXD
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Is your mother pregnant?
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Errrr...no.
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Nevermind, you'll never answer nicely to me.
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