Just venting
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Thread Topic: Just venting
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I am depressed. For starters I lost the girl of my dreams and quite possibly to one of my closer friends. She's beautiful, intelligent, funny, and understanding, mostly what I dream about. Or what I used to. Yeah I dated her, worst experience of my life so far. First day I see her afterwards she wouldn't talk to me, not even a goddamn glance. The three days later, she breaks it of with me with a bulls--- excuse. I cried myself to sleep for three weeks because I knew I just lost something I loved. Don't you f---ing tell me I don't know what love is, because I know, and I regret it.
About two months later my dad died, I smiled. After all the s--- he put us through he f---ing deserved it. That's what I thought before the entire f---ing school knew. Every five seconds someone news asking if I was alright, or that they were sure he was a good man. I look them straight in the eyes and asked if they knew what it felt like to be stood up by your own father. Then not expect anything but a simple visit within ten years, and then when he dies, you're not even the last thing on his mind. That was two months ago. I still think about it everyday.
Now that I've been sent to hell and s---ted back up. She wants me back. Yeah and you know what I do? Nothing. I sit there and pretend to be oblivious to any hint of flirtation, when she throws herself at me I say he hair looks nice. Why? Because I'm a dumb--- that's why. Now I realize how little I have forgotten my feelings for her, and I need her back, but it's too late now.
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Damn dude. Try listening to some Skrillex.
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...*Hugs*
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