A Simple Question
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Thread Topic: A Simple Question
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A Simple Question
Do you know what it's like to be me? The answer is simple, of course not. However, some of you may think you know what it'd be like living my life. You don't.
Do you know what it feels like going to school everyday, having to act like everything is okay while on the inside you have no idea whether or not today is the day your best friend will choose to kill herself? I do.
Do you know what it's like laying awake at night, your heart pounding, trying to recover from nightmares about guns and knives? I do.
Do you know what it's like to have your heart aching, longing unbearably for death? I do.
Do you know what it's like to be a performer everyday, knowing that if you drop the act for so much as a second, you'll be totally and utterly alone? I do.
Do you know what it's like to imagine what would happen if everyone knew your secrets? Do you know what it's like to count down the secrets and the number of people who would still love you, until both hit zero? I do.
I do, I do, I do. I live that every day of my life. It is hard.
What is it like to be you? -
Considering that I am not you, I most definitely do not know exactly what it's like to be you. Still, I know what it's like to be me, and everyone who has to experience life knows it's not always a bouquet of roses.
My best friend is going through rough crap too. The fact that we live on opposite sides of the country makes it difficult to really be able to help her or comfort her. It worries me too.
You don't even want to know how twisted my dreams can be.
I do. A lot of people do. But my faith and personal morals keep me from taking my life, and I've never regretted my decision to live until my time is meant to be up. There's also a lot of music out there with meaningful lyrics that keep me going. I do still get tired of life sometimes. I just take everything one breath at a time, and that keeps me moving forward.
I put on an act much of the time to keep peace and positively. It's very rare that I ever share my deepest self with people.
I would not like to get into it, but you have no idea how hard that rings true to me.
The point is, every single human being has a story. Every single human has a reason for why they are who they are today. I'm sorry that what you're going through is rough, because I'm struggling too. My view is that there is going to be times in our life that are very very hard, but we go through them to grow as a person and become stronger. Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it.
Don't let life beat you. You're capable and strong enough to get through it to live to your fullest potential and happiness. It's okay to cry, and it's okay to break down. Just remember to get back up and don't let your pain wither you away.
Maybe my advice isn't all that helpful, but I'm trying to learn and work everyday to get better and get on my own road in life. All I can say is I do care and it will be okay. -
Do you know what it's like to be a performer everyday, knowing that if you drop the act for so much as a second, you'll be totally and utterly alone? I do.
I can relate to this- I'm still too chicken s--- to admit that I'm a communist to anyone in my family.
By the way, don't die. It would suck if you died, the world wold be a worse place without you- we're all deserving of life, except maybe the a--holes who say some of us are not. -
Thanks. Both of you. And sorry about your friend Anastasia. It's hard.
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*read the first line and already figured our it was gizoogle* XD
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