I'm sad.
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Thread Topic: I'm sad.
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I'm sad that my life is a wreck.
All my friends have friends and boyfriends and cellphones and all that stuff. They're not real friends but two who I'm close two and then my sister steals them away from me too and doesn't say a thing about it, just acts like it's natural because I'm used to it.
She acts like she's the better, dominant, more beautiful twin who turns me into the automatic outcast and shoves me back into the world of introverts, and the highness of unpopularity (aka myself) is forced to the computer where she only feels like her and she is comfortable to talk to people because doing it in real life is too hard.
You guys are my only friends, which I think is pathetic that I can come to you when I'm sad instead of some sort of doctor or my parents. Oh boy, I'm doing it now, aren't I?
The social life I try to have along with balancing the academic achievement of having good grades and getting the honor roll to make my parents proud is too much weight on my shoulders. I can't have both or I drop both weights and give up, if you know what I mean. It's too hard, having both lots of friends and straight A's and B's. If I try to be popular, my grades drop. If I focus on schoolwork, I lose my friends.
Right now I'm trying to do both. I want to do both and I'm struggling to do both. But now I don't have any friends but my sister who doesn't even want anything to do with me or good grades. I have like three C's, one D and an F. Not too good, is it?
Recently I went to a Valentine's Day school dance and nobody talked to me either, I just sat in an empty chair and drunk Pepsi while all dolled up yet nobody asked me to dance or ANYTHING. I was like some sort of illness everybody wanted to avoid. My friends didn't come over, either. I felt so lonely while everybody had fun and danced.
And every time I try I just feel like crap, trying to be funny and cool when nobody ever listens. I come to people when they're sad, feeling down, and I try to make them feel better. But when I'm sad? Nope, nobody.
I feel like an outcast. I feel like a ghost. I've been thinking about both suicide and homicide recently. Like I want to destroy everybody who's done anything mean to me and then kill myself.
I feel like a bad person. And I think I am one. -
These are some pretty usual middle school problems for anyone who's on a site like this. I'm sorry. I know it sucks, believe me. I wish you didn't have to deal with it.
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....I was going to say something, but I would probably make it worse, so I'm just going to...*hugs*
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Everyone on here has dealt with at least one of those problems. For a lot of us, all of them, and more. Killing yourself won't solve anything. When you want to kill yourself, make a list. It should include the following things:
Where you want to go
What you want to be one day
What you're good at, and what you want to be good at
Feelings you love
Smells, tastes, sounds you love
Your favorite songs
Who you love
Who loves you
Everyone who's ever been there for you
Something you love about your body
Something you love about your personality
Your favorite colors, pictures, visuals
Your favorite creatures or flowers or any natural things
And then, title this list "Reasons I'm Alive." You are a warrior, and you may need a little reminding at times when you look at your battle scars, but you are fearless and powerful. -
Ask your friends for help with schoolwork?
But if you can't, just know that middle schoolers suck and 90% deserve to step on a lego.
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ASS (nice abbreviation): Ugh. I know how you feel.
SG: Yeah.
UnLoving: *hugs*
Selena: Okay, here I go.
I want to go to..
England. France. Japan, Germany, Italy, China, Russia, Australia, New Zealand, Brazil, Bahamas, and all of the other countries. I want to explore the world.
I want to become..
An artist, vet, video game designer and specialist in PHP when I grow up. A whole lot of jobs, I know, but they are all my hopes and dreams as an adult.
I am good at..
Drawing both traditional and digital art, origami, reading, and other things. I'm the literature-ly artistic person who is into that kind of stuff.
I want to be good at..
Sports like basketball, volleyball and soccer, as well as singing and dancing. My vocal chords or feet aren't as ready yet.
I like to smell..
Candles, vanilla, cinnamon, apples, edible contents of a bakery, cotton candy-scented perfume and mints.
I like to taste..
Chocolate, fromage, fruit, pudding and yogurt. I like other things, but these are the things I like to taste the most.
I like to hear..
Soft sounds and high sounds--of which are contents of a catchy song. Birds chirping and other animal sounds, as long as the sound of a piano or a xylophone.
I love..
Too many people I can't even list. I have so many people I love.
People who love me..
I haven't heard this a whole lot, but all of my best friends (real life and GTQ), a few people who had a crush on me, my family and probably my pets--who can't speak but show it through body language.
People who've been there for me..
Mom, dad, siblings, pets, other relatives, friends, best friends, and a whole lot of other people I really seem to care about.
Something I like about my body..
I like my eyes and the highlights of my hair. I also like my figure and the cute blemishes I have.
Something I like about my personality..
I like my determination and sometimes how I overthink things--which I find funny. Sometimes I'm not afraid to speak my mind.
My favorite colors..
I like colors like pink, purple, blue, green, yellow, colors that can influence my mood are interesting.
My favorite pictures..
I think I found so many pictures that I like I can't even link or list them for you.
My favorite visuals..
I like the sight of cute things. Kittens, puppies, baby ducks, you name it. If it's cute, it appeals to my eye. I also really like to look at delicious food, it makes me appealed in what is being shown.
My favorite flowers/natural things..
I like roses, tulips, lilies, marigolds, sunflowers, bright flowers that are really beautiful to me. I am also grateful that trees provide oxygen.
Appa: Oh, okay..thanks. -
Uselessness is what everybody feels on GTQ. I can understand what you are going through, and I know what it hurts. I'm pretty sure the rest of the seniors with middle school problems can.
Brownies, now is the time. Tell your sister how you feel. She might back off and if she doesn't, a baseball bat could come in handy. Never live in fear. She's your sister, not your ruler. Unleash and vent that anger on her, make her know what you've been through. My older brother too is a selfish, b----assed jerk and but I stood up to him. Stand up to your sister.
Most of the GTQ users and I can agree for one, that you are not ugly. What does your sister have that you don't have? And a boyfriend is technically no point when your not even a teenager, so leave those idiots with there boyfriends. Is one really necessary?
Managing two lives is hard, but even harder when you try to balance three lives in your basket. A GTQ life, An academic life and a social life. Most of us try to do it as much as possible. Who is forcing you to be on the Honor Roll? Try another thing to make your parents proud of you. For example, how about an extra curricular activity? Or sports? Don't be a mega studier and don't be a mega partier. Your parents will be proud of you if you just don't do anything stupid and that will be enough. Sign up for singing and dancing, you said you wanted to be better at it right? If there is a dance production or a musical, BAM, Sign up straight away. Try to be an average B student rather thana a straight A person. Personally, I hate those people who think academics is everything.
For your friends, you said you got a Windows 8 phone right? So you also have a phone. Don;t rely on items to get you popular. I'm 15 and have never had a phone, only an Ipod, yet i'm one the most popular in my gradego figure. Tell your sister to back off, even if it is tough. Just go with all your friends and if your sister takes them away, join them. It is tough being friends with your siblings but if your sibling annoys you, annoy her back. Just hang out with her crowd or your other friends.
GTQ is a good place. Most of us understand what it is like. You can count on us. And when the times are you, you're feeling and blue and depressed, think of us. The people who matter to you. The people who need you on here. A dark world, the one that we live in, aches for a splash of sun. We're that splash of sun to you. -
90% of your threads like this you just say they are joke threads later on so I'm just gonna stay comfy in mah bed not giving a s---.
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Don't get sad over cellphones. Or else in twenty years you'll look back and go "Why the hell was I ever so concerned about a phone?" Of your friends don't like you cuz you don't have the right phone, than they're idiots. Stay away, their stupidity may be contagious.
As for the other stuff, talk to your sister. I you don't wanna do that, talk to the friends she's 'stealing'. Maybe they can help.
And if none of that does anything, you've always got us. It's an insignificant sentiment, but very true. *hugs* -
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Geek: I'd say about a little less than 30 percent. I only sometimes do it, but this time I'm really serious.
Doodle: Thank you.
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This happens to a lot of people, including me. First, you need to find some real friends. Being popular isn't all it's cracked up to be. If you find a few new people, you will be happy. I was alone until I met my friend Alyssa. When I did, I met all her friends and I'm finally happy. You just need to step out of your comfort zone, meet new people. Have you ever though about that quiet girl in your art class? Maybe that cute boy in your math class that you never really considered because he was so shy? Perhaps even that loud crazy girl you always see running around at lunch. The possibilities are endless. You can be who you want to be, do what you want to do. Suicide will just make things worse. Think of all the people who love you, focus on the bright side. And finally,
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...be your fabulous bunny self.
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*pets the bunny*
Gee, thanks.
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