..........I need some help......
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Thread Topic: ..........I need some help......
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Alright, so...before you go on about how im an attention hoarder, i'm not. i seriously need help on this.
My great grandma died in winter. I was really close to her, and i visited her beforw and after school everyday a week before she died. (She lived at the rehab my mom works at, across from my school.)
I get really depressed alot because of it. Since she died, i've had 23 absenses from school, and i haven't been sick. They were all just because i've been depressed, and i just didn't want to give a f--- about school and my friends, and my grades. And i didn't wanna deal with the annoying ass kids and teachers. I cry myself to sleep at least 5 days a week. And sometimes, there are days where i'll just stay up all night with my mom and cry on her shoulder about how muchy i miss her. I keep having really bad nightmares about my great grandma too. The day she died. I was in tech ed class. I called my mom, in class to see how she was dfoing. My mom told me zena had died 30 minutes before. Most of the class was in the work room, but there were about 5 kids in the classroom. I broke down crying infront of them. I walked to the office and waited for my mom to pick me up, becasue her funeral was at sunset. I cried for about 3 hours, and even more at her funeral. Her funeral and the timme in tech ed keeps replaying in my dreams, and i just can't take it anymore. I can't really explain alot of them, but i know that i've woken up in tears after those dreams. I can'y see a physocologist. Been there, done that. All they do is piss me off. We've tried 3. My mom helps alot, but all i want is ffor her to come back. How can i feel better about this? My grades have gone down too. They went from A's and B's to B's and C's and D's. It's like i just don't give a f--- anymore. I need to get my grades back up, and i need to stop crying and missing school. My life has enough problems as it is. But...how can i stop? -
You can't bring back the dead. All you can do is accept that she's gone from the physical world. But instead of missing her, why not just remember her? Remember her as the great grandmother you love. I'm sure she'd want you to be happy and remember her fondly instead of beating yourself up.
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I do, but when i ca't stop crying about it and being upset. I just can;t help it...
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Talk to your mom. If you have anything that reminds you of happy times with your great grandma, keep them around you. It is sad and it is hard, but you need to keep moving towards the future. You can't let depression ruin your chances of getting into a good school, jobs, etc. It might take time, but move on.
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I agree with Teresa. it may be hard but try and think about the happy times you had with her. maybe remembering that will put you in a better mood.
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