My Page :D
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Thread Topic: My Page :D
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Like Idunno what's wrong with me. I can't be left doing nothing becuase I get anxiety and it scares me becuase I seem to wanna hurt myself. When you yell or scream at me, I get it. I don't know what's worse to have that or depression. Maybe it's both, but with anxiety I can't seem to controll myself, you know? You saw what happened earlier. I'm jus scared it will get bad. I mean I can't really remember what I do afterwards.. It's like all in flashes. What's wrong with me?
"I just wanna say good bye, dissappear with no one knowing
I dont wanna live this lie, smiling to the world unknowing
I dont want you to try, you've done enough to keep me going
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine for the very last time" -
Anyways, on a more.. 'Happier Note'. It's Spring Break.. Yay.. I guess.
Gah, I'll have to spend the whole Spring Break with him. xP Seriously? I can't even stand him. -
I already had spring break. :P
I'm on Easter break. -
This thing is suffocating me. ^
Day after day I watch you from afar admiring your beauty. I notice little details about you, the unique brown hair you have. Your full lips. Or that smile that can stop traffic in an instance. My friends laugh, telling me that you will never notice me. But we all have had that first crush. The one that you can't help but notice everything about them. The cute glasses they wear or how happy they always seem to be, instantly making you smile. I don't really care whether you notice me or not.
Days pass and fall turns to winter.Your beauty grows. I can't help but notice the delicate shade of pink on your cheeks that barely peeks out in the chilly air. I watch you from afar as you laugh with your friends or mock the grumpy teacher. Sometimes I notice you turn around, but I'm to quick and I face another way.
Time is just an illusion measured by the passing of days. Winter is nearing its end, as spring desperately wants to come out. The angelic beauty of yours blooms within days. Taking away the attention of all the flowers that have started to become alive. The birds sing outside, everyone admires them. Exclaiming that its the very best tune they have heard. I just smile, from afar, obviously they have not heard you sing. Just your voice can put bird singing to shame.
As spring says Good-bye, we are left with summer at our toes. All year, I have been sitting in the back, admiring from afar. Noticing little details that make you a beautiful person. I love the pout you always put on your face when the teacher would yell at you. Or that innocent face you do when you try to act like nothing happened. I try not to get to close, for it will ruin everything. Summer's first days greeted us with warm hug. But for some reason you seemed to be sad. Everything outside now seemes so lifeless, so dull. It was all ruined.
Stalker Alert. It's just a thought. -
Darn, I was about to get really touched. xD.
Just kidding. :P -
@Ash Easter break? Lucky.
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Lol. xD It's a poem I'm working on. I'm not sure If I should finish it, though.
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Yeah. Is like 4 days. :P
You should. It's good. ^-^ -
Lucky. xP
Okay, I will. ^^ I'll try to finish it.. Idon't know how though. I'll post what I have done so far. -
Well, you're on spring break right?
Okie dokie. ^~^ -
I gotta go.
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Aw. Okie. Byyyyeee.
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Day after day I watch you from afar admiring your beauty. I notice little details about you, the unique brown hair you have. Your full lips. Or that smile that can stop traffic in an instance. My friends laugh, telling me that you will never notice me. But we all have had that first crush. The one that you can't help but notice everything about them. The cute glasses they wear or how happy they always seem to be, instantly making you smile. I don't really care whether you notice me or not.
Days pass and fall turns to winter.Your beauty grows. I can't help but notice the delicate shade of pink on your cheeks that barely peeks out in the chilly air. I watch you from afar as you laugh with your friends or mock the grumpy teacher. Sometimes I notice you turn around, but I'm to quick and I face another way.
Time is just an illusion measured by the passing of days. Winter is nearing its end, as spring desperately wants to come out. The angelic beauty of yours blooms within days. Taking away the attention of all the flowers that have started to become alive. No words, in any language conbined could describe your beauty. The birds sing outside, everyone admires them. Exclaiming that its the very best tune they have heard. I just smile, from afar, obviously they have not heard you sing. Just your voice can put bird singing to shame.
As spring says Good-bye, we are left with summer at our toes. All year, I have been sitting in the back, admiring from afar. Noticing little details that make you a beautiful person. I love the pout you always put on your face when the teacher would yell at you. Or that innocent face you do when you try to act like nothing happened. I try not to get to close, for it will ruin everything. Summer's first days greeted us with warm hug. But for some reason you seemed to be sad. Everything outside now seems so lifeless, so dull. It was all ruined. All because you were not happy.
Maybe it was just me, but no one else seemed to notice. The once angelic smile of yours, seemed to be forced. I have spent all year studying you from afar. I knew what a genuine smile looked like. I saw you, putting on that fake smile for the rest of the school year. It all seemed like winter, everything so dead.. Your eyes seemed sad, but no one noticed. How could they not notice?!
The very last day of school, I gathered enough courage to ask you what was wrong. You turned around to face me, a small smile formed on your lips. The next words you spoke were full of sorrow and utter pain. "I'm moving." You said. My whole world seemed to shake, time stopped, I was lost for words. This can't be true, can it? You can't leave, my smile depends on yours. My life depends on yours. I soon realised that whatever I have felt wasn't just a crush. It was love.
All year I have spent watching you from afar, thinking that if I spoke to you I would ruin everything. As the bell rong, indicating school over you gave me a letter, making me promise not to open it till a week from that day. That was the last time I saw you. The last time I saw your angelic smile and those cute little dimples. The last time I saw an angel.
A week later I was so eager to open your letter. On that letter I learned so many things.
-"As you may now know, I'm moving. By now I may already be on my next destination. I wrote you a peom.. It doesn't rhyme, it doesn't have good words, but it comes from the heart.
Theres no day that goes by that I don't think of you. Everytime I feel like I can talk to you, I get really nervous. Everytime that I turn around to see you, you're looking at someone else. I may not be much, but I would have tried to made you happy. I study you from afar, I notice unique characteristics of you. Little details that make you, perhaps the best person Alive. I wish that one day we can talk. Don't commit the same mistake that I made, by not talking to the person who you like, or possibly love, this whole year or next year. I hope that one day we will be able to see eachother again.
I might not be good with words, or poems, but I really wish we could have spoken this year."-
The only thing I did that year was watch you from afar. Thinking that if I got too close I would ruin everything. That was my worst mistake. :( -
It was through Sunrise Park that I first saw you. A petite figure walking alone in the early spring. I saw how you would swayed your hips from side to side. I wasn't really sure what brought my attention towards you, if it was either that brunette hair or that sweet smile.
I approached you asking you a dumb question, but hey! It seemed to get your attention. I could feel myself smiling like an idiot, trying to hide my blushing cheeks. We seemed to talk that day for hours. Once it came down to go you gave me your number and we decided to meet once again tomorrow.
I was walking home like a little kid finally getting what they wanted. That night I was too excited to sleep. We met, the next day and it seemed impossible. But somehow we kept on talking and we kept on going to the park.
We became good friends but the wasn't enough. I needed you like I needed air, like an addict needed its addiction. Our constant meet ups became a routine.
After a good month or so, I asked you to a date. You agreed gladly, I found myself, once again smiling like a fool and blushing. -
Ohm..
We went on our little date through the park, both smiling and stealing glances of each other every now and then.
We went through the park, stopping for ice cream. Once we ordered, our feet took us to the spots where we first met.
You kept on teasing me, telling me that I saw a 'Dummy' for asking you the question, I had asked. I gave you an innocent look, as you flicked my hair.
The rest of the date went by, and soon enough it was time to go.
We texted each other nonstop, as days passed, they soon grew to months. Months in which I spent loving you like no other, we talked and we met in the park.
We basically lived in the park, you were going through a rough time, I had no idea what to do, other than to offer my company.
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