Just another ash garden
Thread Topic: Just another ash garden
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But I'm moving again this year to Virginia
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Cali? Shiiii we may be closer to each other than I thought lol
Ive been living in the north west for the past 5 years.
And moving back to the east?
Again another similarity as im trying barrage myself into Appalachia in the next couple years.
And congrats on the career and marriage -
May I never need to see them again but I know as write here in this thread there is a risk of me needing one day speak with them again. I wish her the best and don't wish her harm but if she ever reads this the words I leave to her this. "If your reading this I am glad your able to do so but id rather not be mocked or talked down too. I don't want to get personal as its been over half a decade. I do not need pity. I do not need to talk about how Ive grown without you. This post is my closure that was due years ago. Im glad for your survival and I'm happy with myself as I am in my current state. I barely remember the details of what was between us and I went out of my way to erase what memories we shared. but if I you really wish to speak to me you should know were to find me or how to find me. I will not have much to say as I have priorities in my life now. A people that I I've spent the past few years connected with socially. Something that sheds light on what really Matters compared to the nativity I that came with my youth. Take care.
(This coming part is more for me)
It's 2025 now. I have traveled a lot. I am severed from my childhood physically and im not even done travelling. This site feels like a graveyard and I am just kinda browsing through and seeing about roughly 2 ancient users being BrOwnie and suprisingly Rvelze.
And 1 old one being Stardust.
Everyone else? Don't really deliver memories. Whats crazy is that few folks from way back in the olden days I still talk to regularly. Really only Two.
1 of which ive known for a whole ass decade. A whole ass decade. Thats still crazy and I can't wrap my head around.
I'm probably just gonna end up using the "ash garden" as a place for reflection, simping over Fire and the occasional conversation were I may or may not bail out halfway through the talk. Idk most folks lack the patience to deal with my AbSeNcE. Maybe that means im the issue? Idk. Not that I don't like speaking to people, its just a little rough to talk to new folks. Maybe it's due to unfamiliarity being uncomfortable or maybe the ever so slowly fleeting cynical outlook I have.
Meh
If your an "outsider" so to speak just bare with me or maybe you know? Go to bed? As if your talking to me regularly your either an insomniac, Owl or neglecting your circadian rhythm.
Or maybe I'm overthinking things as usual. -
Burn.. just burn.. I really need to see something burn. feel the heat, watch the embers fly. but I can't do that here, as long as I'm renting? I can't.
When theres a fire it feels like the world stops for a minute
Easy to get lost in -
Being called ancient is wild đź’€
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Lmao
Nah you've just been around a couple years longer
though by the amount of time thats went by
2 years is basically nothing lol -
yeah time is something alright
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How are you btw
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Uhh could be better. I have gastritis and an infection atm :,) wbu?
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oof Heal well. May Citrus not be a eternal curse for you.
Im doing my best
working on new years resolutions (quitting vices)
Im on my Thursday
Waiting on mail and "Dreaming"
so Im ok, currently doing rimworld shenanigans
but as always perpetually tired cause I Slur In Graveyard -
Later than that one rabbit from that children's story
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Oh well.. I guess I'm taking the risk by being here. Eh its been long enough. I'll be fine, I can manage it. Everything is ok. Im fine and im sure it will only get better. After all could be worse.
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It could always be worse
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Just gonna use this space for positive self reinforcement. Small victories.
What have I done this week that im proud of?
I profited and I have not made a mathematical error on the job 2 nights in a row. And last week I recovered from a tech issue. -
Maybe such positivity will spread like the plague
Maybe 2025 will be my year
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