A Few Words
- Locked by breadgirl69 on Sep 26, '22 9:43amReason: .
Thread Topic: A Few Words
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I thought that I would not be here. I was misread, reacted harshly, said some things that I should not have said, and broke some hearts. I responded in the absolutely worst ways possible.
I did not feel guilt for once.
Then a few months later.... it happened. Right around the time that I did not think about this website, it hit me. It happened in church(I am not getting religious with this because y'all hate that)(also, it was an adult lesson and not sunday school so you don't misjudge me), when we were talking deeply about forgiveness. We watched this video about this woman whose only child was killed my a 16 year old gang member. She hated that man, obviously(I am not refering to you guys as the man, so do take it that way.) It court she said she forgave the man but did not mean it. I did not feel like the man should have been forgiven. The man was trialed as an adult and was sentenced to 25 years in prison. 12 years into that, the woman teached a sunday school lesson about forgiveness and the kids out of curiosity asked hard questions about that murderer. Later, feeling troubled and guilty, she talked face to face alone with that very man who murdered her only child in private at the jail.... and forgave him deeply. Later, they talked for a bit and got to know eachother. Tears were shed and feelings were shared. that man and that woman changed. After the sentence, they became deep friends. I feel guilty not only for what I did and that I did not forgive, but I did not say sorry. I feel like that murderer(Might as well be based on how I responded).
I dunno, I feel akward. I have been going through extremely hard times and I just want some weight off my chest. I lost all my friends recently. Relationships broke apart. I told mint about puberty stuff and I had to deal with those sins
Listen, you can't change who I am and I fear I won't be able to change you. I am not asking for anything today and you can ban me forever after this if you want. I just have been thinking about suicide and dying on the inside for a while and my physical problems are getting worse. I just want some weight off my chest. Again, I am not asking for anything.
Have a great day and I wish you all the best. -
Fine I am wanting something
I want to to if we are cool or not. We don't have to tlak anymore just let me know. -
I think it was very brave and introspective of you to come back here. It's usually all too easy to cast blame and justifications and it took a lot of humility and maturity for you to say all that.
I personally am glad to see you again. I enjoy having you on the site and I genuinely want this site to be a place for people to get support when they're going through hard things.. it seems like you're dealing with a lot so if moving forward gtq can be a positive thing for you and the other people on this site then I do hope you stay.
If you ever need to talk to someone about everything that went down or anything else you're more than welcome in my thread.. -
I guess so. As long as drama ain't started, it's cook if you're here.
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Also I wasn't really involved with all the original drama but from what I can see no one ever banned you...
I can talk with the other mods if you'd like some clarification on everything that happened because I really don't have a great idea on what all happened before you left. All I know is the LGBT thing really hurt a lot of people but I'm pretty sure if you're respectful of everyone and kind then you're welcome on the site -
@mint thanks and I never tried starting anything, it was just when it started I did not take it in a mature way.
Also, I heard that you used to be a christian, right mint?
Well in the bible(which I find quite interesting) it does not explain the evil in sexual sin(except adultery) the same way it explains everything else. It says that it is not mainly a sin against God but rather a sin against the body that God gave you. The whole lesson it then talks about is to live through it cause this life is a test. God tests people all the time and I feel like people like you and me and really everyone feel somewhat against how they are made because we think it to be "not fair" or "not equal". The bible tells us the opposite. The truth is that(and I understand fully if you do not agree) we are all equal and are all loved deeply by our creator. True, he made us different but that is his creativity. (I am not going to get into reason for two sexes because minors get on this website, like me). I DO feel sometimes like life is not fair and life would be better as a girl and I DO wish somethings I shouldn't. The point I am trying to make is that this is a test and we all face it. Do you think christians are pure? think again. We are all sinners and we all deserve far much worse than this. I feel deeply sorrowed by any one who has to go through their whole life hating their body and I DO know how it feels. Again, I never tried to offend anyone on this website(except that time I overreacted and I hated that moment). Wishing the best for you and I have and will forever pray for you and everyone forever.
@ George_HD what do you mean by cook? lol if it is a mistype. How are you doing, btw? -
I meant cool. But I'm good. In a better place and whatever.
Just to be fair... There can be Christians who are homosexual or trans. I come from a Christian family and although I am an aethist myself, anyone can be homo or trans. Doesn't matter religion. I have know some homo Christians and Catholics. -
@ George What I meant is that everyone is a sinner. True, there are some gay christians and all of us stumble. We just need to fight through it together. Everyone sins. its life. I know you wont agree, but either way I love you and God loves you to. Have a good afternoon, friend
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Okay! You too, mate. -
I'd love to discuss this at length with you in an appropriate way. I don't think it's wise to assert that homosexuality is a sin to people on the site though, despite your personal beliefs.
I know personally as someone who deals with religious trauma things like that can be extremely upsetting to others as you're essentially inferring that they are "mistakes." You may truly believe that and that's okay but just remember that many people get physically, verbally, and emotionally abused for being gay and saying things like that can be really distressing to others..
I personally am quite alright talking with you about it but unless someone else explicitly tells you they're okay with I'd absolutely have to insist that you refrain from saying things like that -
gtg, gtq. I will come back tomarrow because I saw only two people say anything. Thank you guys(yes sir, you two individuals!) for not deleting my post and for understanding ig. Did not ever think that that was going to happen lol. Bless you all(YOU 2 PEOPLE LOL) and have a good night. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee! /lh(seeulater,tremiiiiiiiiboiiii)
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(late post, thanks mint! this is probably the last thread for that and I mean no harm thanks byeeeeee)
(I was nit here, you did not see me......
...don't tell the mods lol....
I forgot to end the parrenthesis lol goodnight....) -
(one more thing... for private conversations and chats, gmail me at [no emails])
(don't u dare tell the mods plox) -
Hi, mod here. Mint is also a mod btw. We are not going to ban you for what you said before you left, but you do need to know that that kind of behavior will not be tolerated. We try to make this a safe space for everyone, and many of our members are LGBTQ+. Any kind of hate speech will result in punishment. Consider this your only warning I guessModerator
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@breadgirlcensorednumber lol ok ig I want you to know that I really regret what I said a few months ago but I also feel like we shouldn't bring this kind of thing up because it will always cause people to say not what they mean thank you
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