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Or did you not see that and only look at him through rose colored glasses because the videos were all there now the sibling has a private account and his is deleted
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You have a savior I can fix him complex that you need to get rid of. Wake the f--- up, you’re a 20 year old with your own personal issues you choose to avoid. How the f--- are you going to save this man when you aren’t even fully there? Materialistic s--- won’t cut it. He also has trauma from abuse and years of not getting therapy. You can’t fix that.
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And I love you but I’m sick of you saying how you and this man were meant to be and you are upset you rejected him at the end you can’t you can’t fix him by picking him off the street and bathing him and giving him a home he has not one not two but three diagnosed mental illnesses he’s not your f---ing ken doll like your previous boyfriend this one isn’t okay so stop talking about him and fix your life if you really want to save something because you
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Are not 18 anymore you’re borderline 21 and living in sim land when you could be living in the present and making $11000 out of spite think about your future and about the fact that you won’t always be young start saving up now and focus before your spotlight leaves and focuses on a younger version of you that will be more relevant
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I copy pasted all that waiting for her reaction time to talk about myself for the next hour and a half
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I haven’t been able to sleep well recently I don’t even get sleepy it’s weird
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But then morning hits at around 6 am and my bed turns into a marshmallow and I fall asleep peacefully and wake up at noon
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I had never been able to do that in years because I am used to only working two jobs you’d think it would be good but honestly I am still anxious about what happened I have an interview at journeys for next week because I feel weird just sleeping or sitting at home
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I found out that if you get one of those plastic organizers with drawers and you fill one of those drawers with water 1/4 ths and place it on the bathroom counter and just dunk your head in so that just your face and half your ears get wet and your frontal hair you get the same level of calmness as you do filling a bathtub and stepping in with a sweater and jeans and a hand towel over your face. Same feeling of being heavy and sinking just less water spilling all over the place and
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If you remove the towel before going into the drawer you will feel lighter
Is it weird yes but this is better than me turning the kitchen into a bar -
Or my ankles into a barcode again
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Positive news because I’m starting to make this thread too depressing uh honestly I don’t know I am still not fully recovered from that event
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I think that might be why when I sleep at night I only sleep in short intervals but also it might just be insomnia or something
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I also really want to cry but I don’t know why
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Jesus Christ that’s so cringe don’t ever refer to me as a soft boy again I am the opposite of that I am gaslighting man
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