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While I do appreciate your attempt at solving all my internal issues by using what you’ve learned from your textbooks to diagnose me with Bipolar disorder and pointing out how many similarities I have and how that links back to my childhood trauma i refuse to take this diagnosis because I don’t actually know if that’s correct
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Or if I’m just an ass hole.
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And even if I was bipolar what can I do with that information? Just walk into the pharmacy and ask for help treating this? Do you know how much money an official medical diagnosis is? Just for me to get put on more pills than I’m already on or something? No I’m good.
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No I get what you’re trying to say I’m not dumb I understand you I may not be a medical major but I am in engineering I have to have a certain level of brain capacity in me to somehow be so far into my degree.
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I did not avoid the 2013 self diagnosis trend for me to be doing it now 8 years later and see no issue with it
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but having episodes how you call them are also a sign of depression which is an actual diagnosis I’ve gotten when I was still able to afford sessions?
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I actually have no idea what happened to me in November through probably January of this year I don’t know or recall anything major I did other than anything i recorded on here that was the first time that had ever happened to me
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But that was depression.
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GoOgLe BiPoLAr dIsoRdEr aND teLl mE whAt sYmpToMs yOu havE
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I can’t because a lot of them overlap with depression symptoms oh my god an actual mental illness I am medicated for and have been placed under suicide watch for in the past since 2013
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It’s not that I don’t respect you and your future career in this field I just don’t want to set in my mind the idea that I might have a disorder I might not actually have that seems disrespectful to those who actually are diagnosed
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And while I do agree that yes I do have mood swings and anger mixed with anxiety and lack of care for sleep and diagnosed depression lack of knowledge of what went on for 3 months and further back almost 2 years of my life with a sprinkle of times where I feel like I can rule the world which by the way only happens when I get female validation that does not mean I have this disorder
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It just means I have terrible coping mechanisms anc that November was most likely non existent to me because I was going through withdrawals with depression and I will fight and b---- that says you don’t go through withdrawals when you quit alcohol
I don’t know if it happens for those who occasionally drink but me? I was a full on alcoholic I’m talking about probably a whole year and one semester of full on alcohol every single day. Party every other day or weekend to not focus on my issues -
Get home and drink tequila with 2 squeezed green limes and a teaspoon of salt mixed with ice cubes and think that was normal to be doing while watching jersey shores with my friend
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I don’t deny there probably is something more to me than just clinical depression but who know I don’t and my wallet definitely doesn’t know or want to know
All I want is my degree once I get that next year I can figure it all out
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