I have anger issues
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Thread Topic: I have anger issues
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Can't believe I might be evaluated again
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This will be my third time
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And right before my birthday too
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I don't want to go to another ,mental hospital
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What will my other family members think?
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I love being a "friend " to everyone. I'm completely ignored unless the person they want to talk to isn't there.
I sit alone every day and the only time they worry is when they have no one to talk to.
They never hang out with me outside of school.
They never text me.
I spend most of my day alone.
Because no one ever wants to talk to me -
And I hate it. It would be nice to come home and text my friends all day. It would be nice if they gave me half the attention they give everyone else
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I can't make new friends because everyone in my grade hates me. Literally hates me.
I'm too scared to talk to anyone else in school because they might have heard about me and hate me too.
I had a chance once I moved out of that horrible town. Nobody would know who my father was, nobody would accuse me of crimes, the police wouldn't illegally pull my family over, it would all go away. But I took that chance and ruined it. -
Sometimes I wonder if stories of my father were told to others by my friends. When I got really close to them, I told them.
I hope they didn't. I hated being treated like a criminal just because of my father. I had barely any friends because of it. I didn't get my first friend until 4th grade. I thought I had friends in 3rd grade, until one day they told me I was playing a role in their game and then they left and didn't come back. It really f---ing hurt. I loved those girls. I felt happy. Hell, I even remember drawing a picture of us together. I felt abandoned. They left just like my parents did. And now my friends here are leaving me too. -
It's just not fair. Why does everyone leave me? Am I not good enough for them? For anyone? I wish I had someone. One person. Who wouldn't f---ing abandon me.
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It's a hideous cycle that seems to never f---ing end.
I find someone
I cherish them and put my trust in them
They f---ing leave me.
I end up all alone
It repeats.
Over and over.
Its literal insanity. I do the same thing, and expect different results. But it never changes. -
Okay, rant over
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Paige- I'm not one to tell you what to do or anything. However, going to church is one of the easiest ways to make friends. If you are truly a Christian, nobody cares if you're different or anything. I'm not telling you what to do. I'm just telling you.
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Thanks for the advice! Not a lot of kids go to my church, but there are many friendly adults. I'll try that. :)
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Stress stress stress stress stress stress
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