New thread, new me.
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Thread Topic: New thread, new me.
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I will look out the pot shop window every day until snoop returns from the war
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War?
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He's not actually in a war I was memeing
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r/wooooshed
*immunity -
It's okay! I have a really bad problem with being unclear
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XD paige, I'm jealous of your kindness.
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No I'm very unclear
When I want something I say things that I think would signal at it., but come off as unclear
People get confused when I joking around all the time because I'm not very clear -
Idk maybe you arent expressing yourself clearly?
Dont worry fam its same with me. -
So don't feel bad if you couldn't tell whether I was joking or not
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Oh.. alright.. I wont :)
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I'm probably gonna be called in for my appointment so I got to go
Bye Jeeshan! -
What appointment?
I'm going to sleep gnight Paige -
Doctors
Goodnight -
Haha
Edgy time is upon me -
I feel bad that I haven't responded to everything. I honestly feel like a horrible friend. And whenever I feel like a horrible friend, I get so scared. I think about it at least five times a day. The scene is set. I look at my phone, checking my notifications. I see a message has been sent, but it's too long so I unlock my phone to read it all. Are they okay? They apologize, and say that they feel I've been very negligent and rude, that I've changed. They say that they think it's best if we stopped talking for awhile, and apologize one last time at the end. I tell them I understand. They never reply.
I've ruined all of the friendships I previously had. I haven't seen them because I haven't gone to school for at least a month straight. I'm too scared to start conversation, so they probably hate me. I wasn't anyone's best friend, luckily. And they all kinda started ignoring me since the beginning of the school year. They take all AP classes, if not, they are in honors and some AP classes. I can't even handle one honors class. They're on a whole other level. I can't talk to them about getting homework or vent if I'm having trouble because what I'm doing is 'so easy', 'if I think that is hard, try [class], that is hard.', 'you only spent [time] on your homework? Lucky!'
They are all in drama, so they have a lot of friends that everybody else knows except me. They talk about drama a lot, and I don't get it. They always make inside jokes, so I'm kinda lost. I'm the only one that didn't have any other friends.
They are all getting asked out and talking about how some people act strange around them, and everyone else says that person likes my friend. Nobody has ever had any interest in me, never mind a romantic interest. Well, people's interest in me is more in a bad way. Multiple people used to throw things at me and laugh at me. I was especially picked on because of my appearance. So yeah, romance is definitely out the window.
Some were in sports, very athletic and good at their sport. Some were into art, and were good at it. Some were in band, good at it. I've never been good at anything. I've tried doing that kind of stuff, but none of it gave me any satisfaction, it was more just extreme anxiety and frustration. Talent? Don't know her.
Maybe it was best for them for me to go away. I really wasn't good enough for any of them. That's probably why they ignored me.
I'm kinda alone, and absolutely paranoid about f---ing up again.
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