HORSE'S OFFICIAL THREAD
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Thread Topic: HORSE'S OFFICIAL THREAD
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I have done it since I was 12. I had a relapse on August 2nd. That is when I started again. I was clean for a while. I learned how to conceal my cuts with makeup. The scars on my arms have faded away. I now am developing scars on my thighs for recent times. The only problem is my mom told me I didn't look too depressed yesterday. Little did she know the night before and that day, I had cut my thighs and cried my eyes out. I can't risk going to a mental hospital just because I cut. I know people who have gone to the mental hospital because they cut. I can't risk it. I know they would be doing it because they love me. It hurts thinking they would even send me there. The second thing is, my mom would treat me different and I am scared of her reaction. I can't hurt her. You understand me? I know cutting is labeled as selfish but it actually helps me. I'm also worried the cuts and scars will be seen when I play volleyball.
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I am so sorry for you.
I am dealing with stupid bulls--- , and you have a bunch of stuff.
I feel like the worst friend ever,I will never be perfect,I'm fat,and short,and I am a idiot . I cant even talk properly.
I should just make a list of my flaws.
Or maybe all the things I like about myself.
Maybe we all should make a list about what we like about eachother.
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I get the mental hospital thing,I had images of myself killing myself(Confusing I know) and my mom told me if I had those kind of thoughts,I would go there,and I really didn't like that idea,so I didn't tell them,I just feel like I am not needed,or that I am a burden to my friends and family.
I sound like a b---- right now, but I do sometimes.
I don't feel like that as often but it happens sometimes.
I just try to read and engross myself in fantasy books about Percy Jackson and Story Thieves and s---. I suck at being Comforting and I am so sorry about that.
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Unrelated Note: I got a really cute new haircut today -
Unrelated note note: OMG lemme see!
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I have also thought of killing myself. I would never go through with it because I couldn't pass the pain on. I feel the same way right now
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I am going to make a list of what I hate about myself and maybe if I find anything I love, I will maybe do that list. -
I'm also going to go ahead and tell you, don't be upset or mad, but I haven't eaten in two days.
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Unrelated note thing:gimme a sec it is really cute and layered
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My father told me" Don't ever think of suicide,because it makes the people who love nad care about you think"I wasn't enough , I wasn't good enough for him/her to stay alive" and that made me stop thinking it. I couldn't do that ot my family. OR my friends,who honestly probally wouldn't care at all but ..........
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I will make a list about what I like about you and what I hate about me and what I like about me. -
Mac. I care. I f---ing care about you
unrelated note note note: yASSSSSS
Ill do the lists in a minute -
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I have this really mad expression on my face and I look like a baby bunny.
lol
Anyway,I actually didn't eat much today and almost collapsed as I have scars actualy,jsut not from cutting I will show you . -
if you put the pic I didn't get it.
Okay.
Yeah, I have lost a lot of weight. -
f---ing last post s---
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Thanks , at least someone does.
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I shall
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Unrealted note _ Just stuck my tongue out at my mum who passed by my room felt good,she did it back lol
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PICTURE TIME MOTHERTURCKER _ -
Thhat is the hair gimme a sec for the tohers
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OMG I f---ING LOVE YOUR HAIR!!!!!
Unrelated note note: AWWWWW -
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Here it is:This is on my neck,when I was born I couldn't breath right,so I got a trache,I have been told I have been thorugh a lot of pain when I was little,and that scar is one of the maybe four scars I have. That little red mark is faded stictches from when I was four , eight years ago -
Hey, there is a story to tell your future kids.
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unrelated note, how is your brther? -
Haha,good joke,I am too ugly to ever get a boyfriend,mucch as get married. OR have kids.
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Oh the a--hole?
He's alright,he crashed my moms car .
He got his wisdom teeth out,being a a--hole as usual.
I wish I could see my other brother but he can never visit -
Dude. Chill. You can get a husband of course. Or you can just be a stripper and get tons of money and have a huge ass mansion.
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OMG is he okay? You have more than one brother?
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