emarsh1999's place.
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Thread Topic: emarsh1999's place.
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Every other thought is a way I could die or get really close to it.
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I'll be fine I'm just stressed. Every little thing is getting to me and s--- since I'm always thinking of death every little thing has me terrified. The worst part is that if I die I feel I'd be letting all of my friends down. I've spent the last year and a half trying to become a better person and not living to see the end result just... *sighs* Those who love me too... I don't know what they'd do. I try hard to be all the people I'm close too's everything and it just... *sighs* I need a hug. A long hug. No... a huggle so I can fall asleep without worry...
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*hugugless*
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*curls into a ball* I think it's sad that I can injure myself horribly even if I'm locked up in a safe area. As long as I have my hands free there's nothing stopping me. I mean I know not to but I've done it before and still bear scars.
I feel hollow and empty. Like I'm supposed to be living but instead on my deathbed looking at what I'm leaving behind. :/
I need sleep... -
I don't want to ruin anyone's night trying to sift through anything actually getting to me... I know my thread is basically empty besides me and the occasional other like you two but still...
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It's fine, Eric. I'm here. I'm not leaving your side. I promise. And I get you want to be a better person, and I'll help with it. You tried to make me someone who would be proud to have gone through that, and I am still trying to be that person. I care for you. I don't want you to go. I can't have you to go, Eric.
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I hate it when people tell me I need help... I know I can sound seriously messed up at times but it's just because I'm good at writing my thoughts. Honestly what causes me trouble is that I can't take stress for extended periods of time. A couple minutes and I thrive but a couple days and I fall apart. It doesn't help that I start to fret over everything but... I'm human.
I just wish I had someone next to me to help me fall asleep. Not anyone of course but there's a handful that I'd be fine with any of them. -
v.v *scoots over next to and curls up against*
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*lays head on your shoulder* I'm here. I'm never leaving.
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*blinks sleepily* I need sleep... I can't stay awake any longer...
goodnight buddy -
Nighty night, Eric.
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I left a message for sadey... I just hope she sees it...
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What message....?
Nevermind....personal.... -
I asked Sadey why she was mad at you. Idk what happened but I tried to hel.
I really gtg now -
She's made at me?
But okay. Nighty night Eric.
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