Blow a kiss, Fire a gun
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Thread Topic: Blow a kiss, Fire a gun
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I'm going to be honest, even when you're not camping, when you're not busy at all, you ditch me after about 10-15 minutes of conversation just like everyone else... So please don't say you would do something when I'm pretty sure you wouldn't. You've made it clear a guy is more important.
And you seem to be just as bored/tired of me as the others.
We are not as close as we were, and I'm doubting we will be. You obviously have a bunch of other people that fill in wherever I was, so I'm not needed anymore.
I've given people space, waiting patiently for someone to say anything, but no one ever does.
I'm also sick of people who try to talk to me only when I mention I'm upset. No one gives a flying f--- whenever I try to share something that makes me happy. Hardly anyone idly talks to me about random little things anymore. A few people do, it's nice of them, but it'd be nice to talk to the people that were supposedly "so close" to me.
But those "close" people can't even bother to give a f--- and ask how things are going.
I feel like the only person that genuinely gave a s--- about me is gone. And all I want is for them to come back so I have at least one person that I can trust 100% again. -
I don't even want this f---ing food..
I wanna throw it at the wall.
I'm sick of beans. Sick of these different hot dogs. Especially sick of burgers. -
Sick of this house. Sick of this town. Frankly sick of just being here.
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I'm aware that I do that, and I apologize. I've been that way towards everyone, even Justin actually.. He got really upset when I did that, and I have no excuse for it. Nothing is stopping me from giving everyone attention but, well, me. So actually no, "a guy" is not more important. I've been distant towards everyone recently.
Bored? No. Tired? A little, but that's only just after we fight. And right now, I'm not tired with you.
Perhaps that is true, but I would still like to be your friend. Don't start with not being needed, please. There's no way anyone can replace you. You've done so much for me, as have my other friends that I don't talk to as much as I should.. Just because I enjoy my league friends, that doesn't mean I don't enjoy you just as much.
Am I one of them? I don't try to be. I just sat down maybe an hour ago and started writing/poking my head through the site. uwu" You happened to post something about Overwatch at the time I was on. -
If he weren't more important than us, then he wouldn't be the only person you talk about. How many of us do you even talk to now?
Well, you're obviously bored, too, because you leave or don't respond to me at all anymore.
That's a funny way of saying I can't be replaced when you don't bother to even try to talk to me. I always have to speak first, and even then, you won't respond for hours or at all. You can talk to a guy all day, every day, but you act like it's such a hassle to talk to anyone else - without him there - for an hour..
I'm at the bottom, always. It seems that's where I'm going to stay, so what's the point of being here anymore? The only person outside of my family who didn't think of me last, gone.
It feels like my own family even puts me at the bottom, or they make me into a joke. My sister's the only one that's even tried to talk to me lately and I want to cry every time because she'll talk about stuff I did as a kid that I can't remember. She's now the only person that doesn't give a s--- about how I am.. -
Can't even take this plate downstairs...
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And clearly you don't enjoy doing anything with me anymore because any time I ask to do something or try to do something, you leave or don't bother to do anything at all..
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I don't talk about him much anymore. The only reason I mentioned him now and in my previous post is because you tried to use him against me. Do you mean "us" as in my friends from GTQ?
I don't receive every notification on my cell from Skype. From anyone. So yes, I don't respond.. Because I forget to check and I don't get a little banner anymore. :/ And I've been trying to warn everyone when I have to go.
I just spoke first right now. I came into your thread trying to make you feel better by offering a conversation. I haven't left yet. And stop bringing him into this! I'm able to talk to anyone without him. The last time we called, YES he was in the call because I was playing a game with him. And I even TOLD you that we were going to be gaming, so you couldn't blame us if we were chatting about the game. If I wasn't with family, I'd call you solo right now to prove I don't need him in every call. f---, I called my other friend and didn't even ask him if he wanted to join because it was bro time.
You aren't at the bottom to me. Even if my standing looks bad, you're more towards the top or at LEAST middle. You're.. Free to take any measures you deem fit for yourself, but I don't think you should be so negative towards yourself.
I'm glad she's been hanging out with you. At least you have someone in your family who is there for you, right..? -
I can't do anything this week. I've had limited free time and I spent today's free time on GTQ instead of gaming. So please don't say that. I do have a life outside of gaming which is why I often turn you and other people down.
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You should know what I mean by us, if not, then that just proves my point.
Yeah, when I'm upset, like anyone does. "trying to make me feel better". So at least half of anything you say is a lie in an attempt to make me happy... So uplifting. And I can blame you for constantly cutting me off and pretending to give a s--- that I was there.
Sure looks like the bottom to me. And I actually should be so negative because everyone talks s--- about me behind my back. If you're all negative about me, then why the f--- shouldn't I be negative about myself? That's such a hypocritical thing to say.
I never said anything about this week, it's literally every time before now. I ask to talk, I get an hour or two, mostly full of silence because you're too busy doing something else, or I get ditched for a game that you play all night. I asked if you wanted to write again, you responded once, then ignored it for over a month.. I'm literally at the bottom. I'm the dirt that everyone just walks all over. No one seems to give a f---.
Would've been nice to have my sister the other 14-15 years that I needed her... -
sigh
whatever
you make zero effort anyway -
Leith looks wonderfur...
Maybe I can finish the line work before going to sleep. -
finding a name for his son is a hassle...
but not nearly as hard as naming Nima's four brothers--
sleep now
names tomorrow.. -
I feel like if I read it, it'll just mess with me all night...
So I guess that'll be a part of tomorrow's business. Though I already know what part of it might say...
siiigh
whatever...
I know I'm right. -
I woke up and fell asleep five times in the past half hour...
I hope my face isn't still blue--
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