Batman's Cave
Thread Topic: Batman's Cave
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care_bear19 Novice*rubs back* I know, and It doesn't seem like it will. Because you're heart hurts, and that's the worst kind of hurt because it doesn't heal like skin or bones. It'll take time. You just have to keep fighting. And Me and alek and everyone else will be right here to help you through.
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care_bear19 NoviceJoz: Of course you can trust me.
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I tripped and fell on a toy
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Care: A broken heart isn't able to heal so easily. Not like a broken arm. Or when you scrap your knees after falling off your bike. This is like falling off my bike. I just fell off, and I can either climb back on and try again. Or sit there. And I think I wanna climb back on and try again.
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Joshy: Ouch, that's gotta hurt. What toy was it?
Care: I need to tell you something. One of the things that happened in my life. In my past, that shaped me. Molded me into this person like clay. Please, I don't want your pity on this. Just your help, tell me it isn't my fault:
Is there something wrong with me? Am I so unwanted to others that they rather hang themselves then speak to me? It's happened before. I've watched Death swoop in and takes people's life on multiple occasions. No. Not just one. Many times. First time, I was four.
My mom decided it was alright to smoke crack when she has cancer. Her boyfriend of the hour came home. He was furious at my mother for some reason. I heard screaming and shouting. I hid in my room, not daring to look out. But I couldn't avoid it.
He started hitting my mom. This is the usual events of my day. But this one day the hitting was harder and more fury was added to the punches. He would usually use his fits, but at times put his cigarettes out on me and my sister for fun. My sister tried to interfere, but was thrown in the Christmas tree. My brother just walked into the house, higher than the kite. Not aware of the situation in front of him.
I tried to get my brother's attention. I screamed, and cried. But I, was useless. I seen this happen multiple times, but little did my mom's boyfriend know she was pregnant. Yes, with a little boy, I remember being so happy, I was going to have a little brother I was going to protect from this bad man. I screamed loud enough for my mom's pursuer to stop and look at me. I still remember his words: What the f--- are you doing? You should be in bed. Or do you want me to punish you some more? He started unbuckling his belt, and I screamed again.
I screamed for my brother, and for my mom. My sister was knocked out, bleeding from the ornaments. After the scarring happened, he went to my mother again. He pounded his fists into her gut. Blow after blow. No one could do anything. I was terrified he would do it again. My mom pushed him into the table, and he yelled. I remember the next part like it just happened. It felt like time stopped, he raised his foot and kicked her in the stomach. Blood gushed out, I realized then, my brother, sweet, sweet Joey, is dead. -
care_bear19 NoviceJoz. That isn't your fault. You were a child, he was an adult. You can't exepct to be able to stop him. The only person to blame for that is him.
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Let me rephrase that have had a s---ty f---ing day first i broke my arm second my brother came out with a gun to his head i sprained his arm and my parents are gone for three months and my little brother is the only thing that clings me too life sometimes i wish i had the gun to the head and acctualy fired it straight threw my brain jozy
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sameoldme NewbieCan I join this group?
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Care: I just feel like I could have done something to stop that. I have more and more memories that haunt me like that. And I know he was a grown man, but I stopped him from hurting my mom for a few minutes. I've done it before, I could have done it again.
Joshy: Joshy, no. I know you feel like that. That it would be easier to do that then live. And it is. But if you give up now, you won't face the good things in life. You'll leave behind the people that care about you. And I don't want to be left behind. Not again.
Sameoldme: Sure. Join the f--- ups. (no offense guys) -
care_bear19 NoviceWoah, Joshy *hugs* Don't talk like that. Life f---ing stucks but, we have to get up, and show life that no matter what bulls--- it throws our way, we will keep going, keep fighting. Because we deserve to. because you deserve to
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And who the f--- is that my little brother has a other brother.Who wants me as a husband, a brother, or an uncle.Im just a f--- up like my dads condom
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sameoldme NewbieTis savannah. And I get what you are saying, we are just a group of screw ups who need revolvers
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care_bear19 NoviceJoz: I understand, but you did everything you could. You were only four, Joz. A four year old doesn't know how to deal with things like that. You can't beat yourself up for soething that wasn't your fault.
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care_bear19 NoviceJoshy: I would care. I care about you.
Savannah: Idk you but true. But no revolvers please -
Joshy: Maybe I do! Have you thought about that? Or thought about the people on this website that care for you like family? You got the gift of a little brother. I never did, mine was taken away from me, died right there. You should treasure yours. Life is a precious thing, and fragile one at that. It can be taken away so easily but not given.
Savannah: True, true, and our lives are like rollercoasters.
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