For the first time in 2 years I'm scared...
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Thread Topic: For the first time in 2 years I'm scared...
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Sorry if any of this is spelled wrong/has s--- grammar/isn't finished cos I am on my phone.
First of all... Well not really scared of this but yeah... I really want to spend my entire life with Eva... But I've been thinking that she could easily find someone better than me in RL who will love her as much as I do... and she won't have to wait 4 years to be with him... He/she could care about her better than I can/have... and be there to comfort her and love her... I'm just worried... Then I am scared to brake my promise and intentionally hurt myself... because even if I'm happy and laughing I still feel like s--- half the time and feel like dying... Finally I am scared to hurt Eva in any way... She means the world to me I would do anything for her... She tells me to jump of a bridge? I'll happily do that for her as long as that makes her happy... I will do anything and everything I can for her...
You guys probably don't give a damn but okay... and that might seem weird I won't read through it so yeah... -
Gonna leave and play a game now... or just re think my life...
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LOVING IS EVA
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Loving 1. Silent Night. 2. 13 my other account 3. Eva's boyfriend 4. godofminecraft56 5. Yo mama. :)))))))))
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And I knew that no one would care :)
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Me and Eva Always have arguments like
Her: Love you~
Me: Love you too~
Her: Love u more~
Me: Nu I love u more~
Her: Nuu~
Me: Yeeee~
Her:*Pulls out a knife* I said yes -3-
Okay that last part didn't count but whatever xD Plus that's the most recent one we had xD -
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Her: *Pulls out a knife* I said nuu -_- -
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I also hate getting Eva worried... I guess I'm just not used to people even giving a f--- about me. Father left. Mum is an ass hole. Granny, uncle and Cousins are in Latvia... I honestly don't know why I am even typing this up... Why aren't there machines that allow you to kill yourself legally..? Not saying that I would use one but why aren't there any? If a person wants to end their life surely it's their choice not their parents, teacher, ect choice... Well at least I have some people to at least make me laugh... Kyle for example... Funny guy... Then there are bullies like Kevin who hold their f---ing ground when they see me... I kinda wish Kevin started a fight with me so I could beat the s--- out of him... He bullies people who are weaker than him why can't he pick someone his own size.. Oh wait no one is a fat as him :D... Kidding... But it's just annoying, if I hurt someone by accident which sometimes happens I say sorry and s---, then give them sweets or something.. I don't think there was any purpose on me writing this but oh well.
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When I was younger I couldn't even watch people kiss... I think it might have been jealousy... Now I can but it's just... Idk weird to me since I haven't kissed a girl in my life... I also used to think I am ugly as f---.. I think I look decent now in the right clothes... Like.. I don't even know why the f--- I'm sharing this I'll f--- off to watch youtube now sorry for wasting your time guys....
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Huh.
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Mini What?
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It is cute to see kids in love.
Not important really. So how are you? -
Says a person who is 1 year older than my gf :) s---.
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I am 15.
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