My OFFICIAL thread
Thread Topic: My OFFICIAL thread
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It doesn't seem like it... but okay...I guess I-... *sigh* well I don't see any reason to talk right now unless you can come up with something, but I will be up all night like I usually am so if you want to talk, just hollar and I will converse....
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I've missed you Savannah. Yesterday I fell apart because I had no one to talk to except Hicc and I did was make her hurt more than she already did...
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I know... it's just....*sigh* I just don't feel like I am really talking to you anymore, it's like talking to a brick wall- it doesn't feel real....
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How can I make it feel real?
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I don't know.... I tried to tell you, but you didn't receive...
I actually really miss you. I have gone absolutely desperate over the last few days, not because I was gone, but because I couldn't find someone to fill the gap from not really seeing you in weeks.... -
Try again.
I'm like a cloud. I constantly change, sometimes phase out of existence, sometimes I destroy things with a tornado of rage, sometimes I electrify people with lightning. Sometimes, I just rain. Sometimes, but rarely, I make people happy by making it snow, but not overly much. -
I can't, I am too wary...
I don't like snow, but I love everything else that clouds do. I mean, I chiefs I do like snow, but it's just not something I enjoy as much as watching it rain....
I am like the wind, Alex, I I make big things out if nothing, I move things with power, and I try.... -
The thing about clouds is that they don't make the rain, they just hold the moisture until they can't anymore...
Brb... I need to go weep in my mountain of pillows for awhile. -
I understand.
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Which is what I tend to do. See, you uncovered another thing about my analogy that is true.
Wh-why? Savannah... -
Okay
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Yes
Okay
Idek, I just have trouble crying now days and I am trying really hard to break down my emotional walls so crying randomly forcing unnecessary emotion on myself just helps in a way. -
I see. I used to be that way, then I realized that it might seem like it helps but really it just makes you feel worse.
brb for reasons I don't think you'd like me saying -
Like cutting? Oh, well I have very strong physiological willpower so I have conditioned myself to believe far to a my false things to have even the faintest clue what is right or good or wrong or bad. But I think it is good to cry....
okay, that just means more cry time. -
Maybe once in a blue moon, but more and it just hurts you. I cried last night and the night before, Savannah.
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I understand... but you have no idea how lucky you are..... I can hardly get myself to shed a tear now days regardless of the circumstances and I hate it. I want to cry, I need to feel something. I don't care if it is pain, fear, anguish, joy, sorrow,or anger, it just needs to be something, and it needs to break me down. Pain isn't breaking anything anymore so I am testing what part of my wall was built on fear now. I don't quite know how to though...
I couldn't cry, I just worked on this really nifty thing I thought of... do you want to see it? -
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