My heart's been ripped & crushed (again)
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Thread Topic: My heart's been ripped & crushed (again)
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My crush, the guy I'm always talking about, Jade has done it again. Okay, so I've lost just about everybody to Maddy C. My old friends. My crushes. Even occasional people I would talk to. I don't abandon my friends, my friends abandon me. But... I never expected Jade to like her but he has. And his friends hate me for whatever reason. So, today he kept ignoring me and treating me like total s--- whenever we DID speak, and finally I asked, "Why do you hate me?" and he said, "Well, my friends hate you so why shouldn't I?" and... I just lost it. I ran to the other side of the room and just started bawling. And fianlly my teacher pulled me outside to ask what was wrong and I was like "it's just friend troubles..." and he got really butthurt (and he's a football coach so it was a shock he felt bad for me) and he said I could go to the bathroom. You know when you've been crying at your worst and whenever you breath in its really loud and it's like hhh-hhh-hhh! as your breathing in? I was doing that all the way down the hall to the girl's bathroom (which is like across the school so everyone was hearing me cry). I stayed in the bathroom just bawling my eyes out for ten-fifteen minutes while girls kept coming in and out and questioning me what was the matter and when I got back to class, I still was. And I still am.
When the bell rang, Jade came over to me and this was our conversation:
Jade "What's wrong?"
Me "Like you don't know. You made me cry!"
Jade "Me?"
Me "Yes you."
Jade "What did I--"
Me "You hate me because your friends do..."
Jade "I didn't say that. I said my friends hate you but I like you."
{This might be a little bit mixed below:}
Me "Whatever Jade."
Jade "What have I done wrong?
{For sure happened:}
Me "You've been ignoring me and treating me like total s---!"
[Travis started laughing and I screamed Shut Up at him]
Yada-yada-yada.
Uggh! f---!
Why does my life suck!? I've done everything for Jade! My dad wouldn't talk to me because I wanted to stay 'friends' with him. I spent forever thinking about him, and trying to make everything right. I gave up what I wanted to do for HIM. I gave up so much. And he doesn't even realize it. In fact, I do so much for everybody and nobody realizes it because I'm just some ugly white girl that's just the best of a bad situation, and nobody gives a f--- (or even thinks about) how I feel or that I have emotions!! I seriously am at the point where I just want to give up and die.
I don't think I've ever felt worse.
And my eyes sting from crying :'(
Sorry, I just needed to get it out. -
The only thing that annoys me when you do this is that you always say vent. What the hell does that mean.
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That means you need to get out emotions and talk about your problems.
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Is it like a real word? Or just like a slang term?
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I don't know to be honest but I think it's real.
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wow... wata bunch of losers... and y are hanging out with them??
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Okay.
Oh yeah, that sucks. Sorry. -
@Hikky - It's ok
@Slim - I'm overly loyal, and like I said, I don't abadnon my friends. They abandon me. I guess I'm just waiting for that to happen... But he felt really bad about it. He kept waving at me and trying to apologize. But uh, really I don't know. They're the nicest people at my school if you can believe that. -
But damn this sucks ='(
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Aw Kaitie you do not deserve that! I can tell how nice and caring you are just by talking to you on here, and I can totally relate. Just keep hope, you are a special person and in the end kind and nice people are what this world needs more of. I'm always here and it is healthy just to let it out. If they were true friends they'd realize how much you do for them and that you have feelings just as much.
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Well, I hope things will get better for you. My life sucks balls, but I still keep living, hoping that one day this will all change, and I'll be hoping till the day I die, because even then, it isn't over.
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Thanks Ana :'')
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Aww, thanks Hikaru too :'') I hope things get better for you too if things suck.
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I hope things get better Louie, I'm sure someday we'll all start feeling better.
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