Wow this is gonna be really awkward to say
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Thread Topic: Wow this is gonna be really awkward to say
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At first I thought "picture because it'll be less boring", but now I'm like f--- it, from the heart.
You know how sometimes you can majorly fall head over heals for one character, or two?
It's happened to me. And it happened so hard because of damn Spain.
It probably doesn't even sound that weird to all of you but really, I've really gotten to love him so much. I feel like that we really relate in personalities and all, and I really love how admiring and caring he really is to those he loves. For me, it's the sweetest and most comforting thing to imagine. Like.. uhg, I can't put this into words but I'm sure you get it.
And I've NEVER told anyone this because I think people would think I was really creepy.. But there was a point during the first few days that I began sleeping alone where I was having these really horrible nightmares, and it was getting so bad to the point where i would sleep about three hours and I would wake up so many times during the night because of how terrified I was.. Then one time I tried to keep myself calm by thinking about Spamano and some fluffy stuff for the ship, then suddenly it had turned where Spain sits on my bedside and has his ax nearby and he'd say to me in Spanish that he'd protect me.. And that night I managed to sleep around five hours. So every night afterward I would have the same thoughts and it'd help me sleep at night.
Then there was that point in time about a week after I started sleeping well, where I was breaking down so much because the pressure was making me crack and I was so hard on the thought that I was nothing.. And as you would guess it finally got to the point where I'd imagine Antonio telling me everything would be alright and that I was worth something in this world.. It made me feel much better.
I dunno. It's really weird. I think it's because of how I've related to Spain so much since I first started watching the series. It's still strange, but letting it out makes me feel okay. :/ -
I do the same thing, so I don't find it weird at all. I have different characters, from fandom or my own mind, that I think about and bring me comfort. I talk to Carolyn a lot, an imaginary friend I've had since forever. Honestly, I think it's human nature to want to have someone who understands you and protects you, so when you lack that in the real world you come up with your own escapes to feel better. I don't see anything wrong with it. x3
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And I've honestly done it so often recently. D: when I can't sleep I think of him being all "herp derp derp" with his ax and saying over and over that he'll watch over me in his sleep. Then when I'm all lonely in my house I could always imagine him saying something along the lines of "don't worry, boss is here to keep you company!~"
I've liked Spain for the longest time but now it's so.. extreme and weird. D: -
s--- my late post. give me a sec..
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Ahh. Okay, I thought I was going crazy for a moment. I'm just glad right now to see that I'm not the only one and you don't think I'm like weird or something.
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Nono, don't worry. :3 I believe it's something that takes creativity to do. Just think of it this way; artists, writers, and anyone who is different and a leader at what they do usually are considered 'weird' by society. Just be yourself. It's not like any of this hurts anyone.
We should have them all come to a party and get to know each other. :D
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