Blizzard & Me.
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Thread Topic: Blizzard & Me.
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(it's okay. i get it. setbacks do suck, but i'm in another depressive stage, which lasts for several weeks. i can't take my meds, i sleep too little or too much, we can't even get an alter to stay in the front for more than a few hours. i'm a f**king mess...)
Quackity shuddered. "But- but I do this to myself!" He sobbed, digging his fingers into his arm. "I do this because I can't cope with anything!" He sobbed.
George smiled. "Are they really?" He asked softly, gently twirling a strand of Dream's hair around his fingers.
Bad jumped and whimpered, not expecting anyone to talk to him. "What? Oh, yeah, it's nothing." He mumbled, blinking rapidly to try to hide the tears. -
(i get thats hard don, i rlly understand. maybe you could talk to somone about how you can’t take your meds without feeling sick? because maybe that could help?)
“I know you do, honey,” Sapnap said, gently taking Quackity’s hands. “But they’re going to heal. And it shows you went through a rough time and came out on top.”
“Really and truly,” Dream smiled, chuckling.
“Bad, love, you can tell me,” Skeppy said gently. -
(but then i would have to tell people that i attempted an od and that's why i can't take them. it's bad enough that crystal, liz, and taty know...)
Quackity shuddered again. "Did I really though?" He asked. "I can't leave the past alone. I can't get my head in the present and leave my past alone. I'm not winning against any of this." He sobbed, his hands starting to shake. "I can't!"
George smiled. "Well, you're beautiful." He whispered.
Bad swallowed. "I know." He mumbled. "I just-" He teared up again and stopped, staring at his hands. "I could have saved him." He mumbled. -
(i know, don but i’d rather you be taking your meds then be scared of telling people. community can be a good thing, and maybe somone could relate to you and help you even more!)
“Love, yes you can,” Sapnap said gently, squeezing Quackity’s hands. “You are such a brave, strong person and Karl and I will always help you.”
Dream smiled. “And you too.”
“Bad,” Skeppy said, shaking his head. “You did all you could. You didn’t wish death upon him. It wasn’t your fault.” -
(i try to. i usually can manage once or twice a week. i'm just too scared of my aunt finding out. or my mom. i don't wanna go to another mental facility...)
Quackity sobbed again. "Then why don't I? I've been trying with you guys and it doesn't work!" He whimpered. "Are you upset with me?" He asked nervously, his anxiety creating a painful knot in his stomach.
George giggled. "Not like you! You shine like the stars, honey!"
"But I could have done something." Bad whispered weakly. "I should have seen it. I- I not only let him down, but his brother. And I let Silveda win." The demon let out a shuddering breath, tears spilling out of his eyes. "I failed Gol." -
(i know, don, and that’s a scary thought. but getting better is the main goal overall, and it’s gonna be hard, but have to take some steps that will be good in the long run)
“No, love, not all,” Sapnap said, shaking his head. “But love, you are getting better. Sometimes it unnoticeable, but I can see you getting better, but by bit.”
“Not true! You’re so pretty,” Dream stated.
“No you didnt, Bad, you did all you could, and it’s okay,” Skeppy said gently. -
(i could just ignore the nausea and take them anyway...)
Quackity shivered. He couldn't read Sapnap and was still terrified about it. He whimpered sadly, glancing down at his arms. "Do I really get better?" He asked. "It seems like I only get worse."
George laughed. "You're pretty too! Far more beautiful than me."
Bad shook his head. "I didn't. I let him die and then years later I end up killing you." He sobbed, starting to panic. "I'm not deserving off you." He whimpered. -
(you could do that too, don. whatever you think is better to do!)
“You really do, Quackity,” Sapnap said, smiling a little bit. “I can see it. And Im proud of you for making little steps.”
“What, no!” Dream shook his head. “That’s not true!”
“Hey, hey, look and me and breathe,” Skeppy said, attempting to lock eyes with Bad. “Bad, the past is past. I am so sorry you lost him because I knew you loved him, but Golds dad was really terrible. You banished him from hell and everything to try and stop him and you did what you could.” -
(well, i'm too scared to let people know that i od'ed... i'm not sure if it's good to force myself to take them...)
Quackity glanced up and tilted his head. "So I am healing?" He asked weakly, rubbing his eyes. "You can see it?"
"It is!" George cried. "It really is! You're so pretty!"
Bad avoided eye contact, staring at his hands. "That didn't stop him from doing what he did best up here. He wasn't a good person. I just created more trouble for the mortals..." He mumbled. "I -" He shuddered and started hyperventilating. -
(okay, i get that don
but i feel like you need to choose or do something about it, you know?)
“I can,” Sapnap nodded, smiling a little more. “There’s obviously more healing to do, but you’ve been trying.”
Dream scoffed playfully, shaking his head. “No! I will tickle you again!”
“Bad, you followed your gut, and you did what you thought was right,” Skeppy assured him. “Everyone makes mistakes. It’s just part of who we are.” -
(yeah, i do... i get it. i'll start taking them again...)
Quackity sniffled and curled his hands around Sapnap's. "You will help me, right?" He asked softly. "Help me to keep trying?"
George grinned. "Not if I tickle you first!" He cried.
Bad shook his head. "Nothing is right concerning him! But I- I couldn't kill him, no matter how much I wanted to." He mumbled. He glanced over at Gold, tilting his head as he watched the sleeping boy. "I guess I still did something right." He mumbled, looking at Skeppy for the first time. -
(oky don. can you promise me if it gets too bad you’ll reach out to someone?)
“Always,” Sapnap said with a smile, nodding.
“No!” Dream said, immediately attacking George’s sides.
“You did, Bad,” Skeppy nodded. “Gold is safe and happy. You did that. That’s amazing. I love you. That’s amazing.” -
(i- yeah. i can. i can tell someone. or tell crystal and have them tell my aunt...)
Quackity liked to see Sapnap smile, especially now. He threw his arms around Sapnap. "I love you." He whispered. "Thank you for understanding and caring for me."
George laughed and tried to fight. "Clay!" He cried, giggling. "Noooo!"
Bad smiled weakly. "I love you too." He mumbled softly. "I also got a promise that we can be together even in death. Before I left, I was promised that I could have my original position back, and that the mortal tied to me could join me. I would like that to happen when we both reach our final death." He said softly. -
(im proud of you don :) it’s hard to do these things, but you’re trying your best!)
“Of course,” Sapnap said gently. “I love you.”
“Yess!” Dream giggled, tickling him further.
Skeppy blinked. “Okay.” -
(i want to make you proud. i'm just scared that one day i won't be able to continue bouncing back up...)
Quackity fluffed his wings up his arms tight around Sapnap. "I love you." He repeated, nuzzling against Sapnap.
Karl stirred sleepily, opening his eyes and stretching a little.
George giggled. "Noo!" He tried grabbing Dream's wrists to stop him.
Bad's smile dropped. "I'm sorry if that was too forward." He mumbled. Apparently, he was still making bad decisions. He needed to stop saying things like that. Just let Skeppy live his life, he thought sadly.
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