yet another venting thread
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Thread Topic: yet another venting thread
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Life is so pointless and depressing. I'm going to college, and I've decided I wanna be a history teacher, but I don't like school very much, and I feel like I'm just going to school and pursuing a career because it's what's expected of me. But it's pretty much the only thing I can do. I don't have any discernable skills to fall back on, and who the hell really wants to work a minimum wage job for a living? But like I said, school sucks. I'm always getting in my own way, or the work doesn't interest or challenge me in any way, I feel less and less able to handle the workload because I get so stressed. Then there's the anxiety I always deal with. I have to do a demonstration for Public Speaking. The only thing even close to a skill I have is singing, and I'm nervous as hell to go in front of the class for them to judge me. I'd almost rather get a zero for not doing it than have people judge me. And then there's the fact that I have almost no human contact outside of work and home. I'm constantly f---ing up, and I don't feel like I can ever satisfy my mother. Nothing really seems worth it anymore. The only two options I have are A. give up on being happy and just play a part in society, or B. just give up period and die. You guys probably don't have much to worry about, but who knows, maybe the next week or so will suck cock completely and I'll be back here saying I want to kill myself. Just a warning.
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I'm really sorry about college tongue D: it's weird to say, but I know how you feel. I hope it gets better.
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