Current Emotion
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Thread Topic: Current Emotion
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Mixed. =\
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hungry nd booooooooooooored
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Kind of alone and ignored :|
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alone, depressed, saddened, dark, hopeless.
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Alana, did you want to talk about it?
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i posted a thread in here called 'venting on and on and on' it's kind of explained in there. yeah, i would like to talk about it actually, i think it would make me feel a bit better.
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I read the thread, and I'm so sorry.
It seems as though your friends did something to you. So, what happened, Alana? -
Like a bucket of clams.
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it started when i was 7. this new girl, chloe moved into my neighborhood. she made my life a living hell. she thought i could be her little minion. i told my friends, and they just said "tough cookies." and walked away. that ended when i was 10 when i punched her in the face and called her a motherf---ing b----. then she left me alone. but now here's the issue. one of my friends, she made up this fake world that she said was real. and... i kinda bought into it, i mean, high hopes and all for mangas and books to come true. then she finally tells me, "i was lying, you idiot. you're so stupid! why did you actually believe me?!" and i said, "well, you're my friend. we tell the truth, always." now my friends think it's funny to make fun of me and then apologize and guilt me into being friends with them again. it's hard, because i hate them, but at the same time, i can't let them go. my high percentage of niceness and sensitivity is overpowering my mean side, and it's making me vulnerable. then in 6th grade my friend started up on the stupid fake world again so i told her, "ITS NOT REAL!" one day in front of my health class. she kicked me in the shin so hard that i couldn't walk for a week. my friends.... they're.... abusive in a way. i've told my parents, and they said to tell my friend's parents, but if i told them my friends would kill me. literally. my friends always like the same people i do, and go out with them before i have a chance. then sometimes they make me cry. i dont make them cry... they just laugh. they ditched me in the middle of the woods, at the corn maze, and at the park. like ran to the car and had their mom drive away. then... at girl scout camp last year i was really really afraid of the ropes course but i tried it... my friend was my spotter. she purposely let me fall and screw up my knee. i guess my friends just think i'm a living walking talking joke. because that's how they treat me. i don't know, they just... traumatize me. they scared me when i was completely pertrified of tornadoes and dinosaurs. and they make fun of my hair, the way i dress, and my body. i hate it so god damn much, but no matter how hard i try i can't do anything about it. i just wish they would go die in a hole maybe for a couple years until i could change my name and move to a new school. yeah... there's a lot more to it all, but i really don't want to post all of it.
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whoa.. didnt know it was that long. i dont expect you to read that. sorry dudes.
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Pissed off and bored.
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Crushed
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Extremely f---ing pissed off.
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Annoyed and wanna punch the s--- outta someone.
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