Haru's Journey
Thread Topic: Haru's Journey
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My name is Haru, 22 years old in a few weeks.
I've been on Gotoquiz for almost 6 years. A lot has happened since I first came here. I was 16 when I found this place. I was lonely and felt trapped. I'd been depressed for years and undiagnosed. I was groomed by a user who is no longer here when I was 17, and I was manipulated to leave home without any idea how to be an adult. My relationship with my family has been broken since, but in the time away from home, I've been diagnosed and put on medication and sent to therapy. I've also graduated high-school and am now in college. I eventually returned to my family, feeling defeated, as I was unable to take care of myself. I've had my job ever since I left home, and I'm proud of myself for still keeping it despite the trials and bullying I've faced while working here.
My current struggle is that I've not been able to work as often as I would like to because I haven't been emotionally stable enough to handle working full-time. As a result, I'm behind on bills. Still, I believe I've made some progress in my life.
I'm currently diagnosed with bipolar 1, generalized anxiety, PTSD, depression, and have an unspecified dissociative disorder that's being looked into. Therapy has made my life a little easier, and the medicine has really helped stabilize my mood, even though I had to go to the hospital several times last year.
I'm going back to school on the 3rd of May. I'm looking forward to working towards my degree so I can become a veterinarian.
This will be my vent thread and life tracker for 2025. -
I have to take my 2 year degree before I transfer to a university so that my college report looks good. I want to make sure there's no chance of getting turned down again, so I sadly have to attend community college until then, and I'll probably have to take all my classes online since I can't afford to get there in person. I only wonder if my parents are proud of me.
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Especially my dad. He never really says that he loves me, but I assume he does. I don't ask. But hearing it would be nice sometimes. I just require encouragement and validation sometimes, and it really means a lot coming from my parents. It means I'm doing a good job and I'm not a failure of a child.
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I want to try to work more, but I also haven't been able to withstand more than 5 hours and three days a week. This is why I applied for disability. But I need to work more so I can pay off my bills and have a comfortable amount. It's really hard right now.
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04/14/2025
Today, I woke up with a cold. It's not too bad since I can still breathe and my throat is still usable. But the headache is really bad. I've been sidelined all day, glued to my bed. I haven't even been moving around as much as I do on a regular day. I feel miserable. Fatigue is beating me down and this headache is messing with my eyes. I'm going to try to go in to work tomorrow because I need the money. I've been hydrating and drinking a lot of orange juice. There really isn't much else I can do. I hope I feel better by the end of the week, but for now, I just want to rest.
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