Vent thread I'll probably forget about
Thread Topic: Vent thread I'll probably forget about
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religion is actually so frustrating to my dumb--- brain bc half of my brain will go "this makes sense" and the other one goes "no it doesnt wtf?"
like with buddhism, the emotion based part of me is like "oh hell yeah this all clicks" but the logical linear side of me is screaming in confusion, and it's the complete opposite with religions like catholicism and Latter-Day Saints -
I might have to have my mom's friend Jerry explain his views on religion to me, bc according to my mom we're both very overcomplicated reincarnation and cycle-repeating believers, but he's mormon, so I want to hear his views. Plus he's also just a kick ass guy and I haven't seen him in a year
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dammit this is stressful
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my brain confuses me so much. It needs linear structure but craves chaos and disorganization
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Went to the doctors today and ughhhh
first off lucas you need to eat more you've lost a lot of weight this isn't healthy, and second off figure out if you want to switch meds to try and help out with anxiety, bc this medication works amazingly for depression, but not at ALL for anxiety -
i had such a huge crash out during at school omfg
at least my ap geography teacher was nice about it. She just sat next to me, gave me a coloring page, and told me to stop being so hard on myself -
spiraling again
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wtf is wrong with me today i feel like im losing it
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why does motivation turn into a spiral for me like genuinely why does my brain twist every good word and turn it into something so far from what was actually said-
every 'i'm proud of you' is a 'you need to do better'. Every 'you're doing great' is a 'but you could do greater'. Every 'you're overcomplicating it lucas, calm down' is an 'it's so simple lucas just stop being an idiot' -
imagine trying to spread gossip about me and then lying to my face about it
do whatever you want pookie, no ones believing it anyway. This was a GREAT way to blow up your own social life and barely scratch mine lmfao -
the girl who tried to spread drama is such a pick me too, she's always going on about how she has no friends (I was her friend until tHiS happened) like honey now we all know the real reason why
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i was her tutor for ap geography too, like girl you just lost a friend AND the person who was going to help you pass the AP test for no reason other than because you were bored and wanted to spread gossip. Womp womp
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and now she's yelling at my friends for telling me about her talking behind my back instead of answering my texts-
my texts weren't even that mean I literally went: "Hey, why have you been talking about me and my boyfriend behind our backs? I've heard a lot of things people claimed you've said, and I want to hear your side. Why are you upset, what did me and Dex do wrong, and what can we do to try and fix this and cause as little hurt from both sides as possible?"
and then she texted my friends yelling at them for 'roping her into drama' like girl you gossiped, people heard, they told me. Don't talk if you don't want to start a conversation -
she ghosted me too lmao. I texted her, she left me on read and then rapid fire texted my friends (they all sent me screenshots lol)
i mean, you can ignore me all you want tonight, but I tutor you in all your classes tomorrow, and we have a BIG test coming up in a week, so good f---ing luck, don't you dare go asking me for help :P -
oh no my logical "lets talk about this like professional adults" texting tone is happening, s--- is getting reaaaaaal
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