koolness
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Thread Topic: koolness
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i love God so much He’s so amazing and im genuinely so happy i get to partake in His word and understand it through Jesus. He’s so cool He’s literally the definition of 2kool4skool like i can’t describe how much i love Him but He is so amazing
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i started praying since nov 13 (very specific numbers, i have the mind of an elephant fr but that day was AMAZING it felt like i just unlocked an old microsoft account after 7 years or so but up that feeling of ecstasy by a million) and for the first week i was desperate to have Him reveal Himself to me and the week after that i started drifting like immediately even tho i might’ve not recognized it. like i still loved Him BUNCHES but i forgor to pray and read more
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but yesterday something really cool happened
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whoops i meant yesterday yesterday***
like the yesterday before yesterday cud it’s like 2 am so dec 8 lol -
so i picked up my Bible and in my mind clear as a bell before i even entered the room to pick it up i was thinking “proverbs proverbs proverbs”, and then after i pick it up i go to the other room to read and one page is sticking out exclusively, plain as day, so i go to that page to fix it and make it normal again and it was proverbs
proverbs 5:4 to 8:1 was the pages in specific but i was flabbergasted gobsmacked and shellshocked so i was all “okay proverbs it definitely is, coolness” -
and yesterday after ending off on proverbs chapter 10 the previous day by starting off on chapter 1, i was thinking to myself “ill go back to proverbs cud there’s prolly something i missed” but in the back of my mind i was thinking about both proverbs and galatians
ive literally never had a passing thought about galatians nor have i ever read it so it was a curious thought and i didn’t really think it was a coincidence cud again, ive never thought about it in my life and lately ive just been listening to all the thoughts in my head that seem right just in case it’s God speaking to me and i want to lean on HIS understanding -
anyway i went into proverbs again as well as galatians wondering how proverbs and galatians have any correlation to one another
and both of them say one thing in specific and boy i got goosebumps, it felt like He was speaking thru the book
“I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting him who called you in the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel—“
and something in proverbs, about the chapter 2 mark but it was about the same thing. and literally a week prior i was so unsure about everything i was doing and where i was going and if what i was doing was right and whether or not He actually loves me and all this doubt, mainly thinking He abandoned me because i wasn’t worth His mercy and grace. im still not. but i was asking Him exclusively to reveal Himself in a way that i could understand, nonstop praying, the first week. and then the week after that is when i started drifting and now this shows up
😬 i really needa work on my patience but im so glad He revealed this stuff to me. i know that’s not the only thing i need to work on. i need to work on patience. i need to work on becoming a servant to others. i need to work on denying the flesh (ive done great so far imo but i think i might’ve accidentally stumbled in sin cud God showed me proverbs 6:16 repeatedly and i realized i might’ve been spreading discord between people. i repented and im going to change it cud i seriously need to work on both my impatience and at times, anger)
i appreciate Him so much He’s truly amazing -
im sorry i was so ignorant to His word :( i would deny all His laws and thought christians were weird. i had a lot of hate in my heart for no reason at all and i sinned so much by everything id do in my anger. i had a lot of things to work on and still do but im glad all that hate and anger is gone
i realized just how ignorant some people can be, like me. i thought hell was just this place you go to inevitably but will be with family and friends so it’s fine and “it’ll be great”. no bro that’s not
hell is torment, in scripture it says constantly you will hear wailing and gnashing of teeth. imagine how terrifying that would be, eternal desperation from your creator and all that torment. it’s awful and terrifying to think of
i thought that among other things, like “God doesn’t care about us if He’s real because He lets bad things happen” which is soso ignorant i can’t even comprehend it. God is love. God is mercy. God is grace. God is amazing. God is omnipotent, powerful, SO AWESOME. I understand the reasoning behind what i had thought in ignorance, but ignorance is the reason i didn’t know the truth
God lets bad things happen because there’s free will. the world is satan’s dwelling. does He want them to happen? no, but He lets them happen BECAUSE there’s free will. same thing with his righteous judgement; His creation is eternally separated from Him when they fall short of His glory, because like how a murderer or thief needs to be convicted for their crimes, same case scenario for God and his righteous judgement -
oh golly i need sleep otherwise i am going to be the embodiment of a sleep walker tomorrow
goodnight :D -
I'm really proud of seeing your growth. It's really inspiring.
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thank you, im glad it can inspire others:)
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anytime i think "i love *insert thing* i always have to correct myself lol and its proving to be tedious
like ill be trying a new food or jamming random keys on a keyboard and be all "woahouh i LOVE this" and then ill immediately have to hit myself with a "no, i like this, i love God and i love people, not items" :') -
i appreciate Him showing me i need to be quick to listen slow to speak and slow to anger
im still working on it but i feel ive come a long ways with it and im very proud of that accomplishment. i love Him so much -
got a guitar and it’s literally crippling my fingers lol but i like it
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God is AMAZING. im AWED at Him
like i can't believe such an awesome god wants a relationship with His creation when we are ANYTHING but worthy. i can't believe He's forgiven us countless times and i just can't believe He's forgiven me. i love Him so much and i just REALLY want to spread His gospel. i want to bring at least one person to Him because that would be the best thing ever; i would feel so accomplished and also insanely happy that someone else has found a way into God's kingdom and knows how much He loves them
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