Beneath my Pillow
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Thread Topic: Beneath my Pillow
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I don’t want to go back to that sadness. The pain I felt was terrible, and I thought I left it behind long ago.
But it keeps taunting me. I keep tearing up even though I try to hold it back. I know people care, I know I’m loved; but still there’s a part of me that convinces me otherwise. I get so many compliments yet so many more accusations, body shaming (mainly because of growth), and negativity. In the mornings I’m in a bad mood, I don’t want to talk to any of my friends nor the people I love and care about. Instead I have my glare prepared to tell them to f—- off. I don’t like myself; it’s confusion, mixed emotions. I always regret my actions and my words, wishing I could’ve said something funnier, been kinder, been more intelligent, been more reliable. But what scares me the most is that we can’t change the past. -
I don’t want to go back to that sadness. The pain I felt was terrible, and I thought I left it behind long ago.
Then don't go back. Move on, and be happy. If you're forced to go back, make it better. I know you can. You make everything better.
But it keeps taunting me. I keep tearing up even though I try to hold it back.
Everyone has their fears, even me, and I know you can get through. I believe you to be one of the strongest of us all.
I know people care, I know I’m loved; but still there’s a part of me that convinces me otherwise.
You are loved. And you'll keep pushing through. And I'll always be fighting be your side when you need me to.
I get so many compliments yet so many more accusations, body shaming (mainly because of growth), and negativity.
I personally think the people who shame others for being too fat or too skinny are b----es. Give me the names of who's judging you for that and let me have at them.
In the mornings I’m in a bad mood, I don’t want to talk to any of my friends nor the people I love and care about. Instead I have my glare prepared to tell them to f—- off. I don’t like myself; it’s confusion, mixed emotions.
Anyone who truly cares will understand. I would if you did that to me.
I always regret my actions and my words, wishing I could’ve said something funnier, been kinder, been more intelligent, been more reliable.
You don't have to search for qualities that you think would make you a better person. You're already the best person I know, and if anyone can't see how amazing you are, shame on them.
But what scares me the most is that we can’t change the past.
You're right. We can't. But what we can do is keep pushing through. And believe me, anyone who distrusts you because of your past doesn't deserve a part in your life. -
that is pure motivation ^
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Thank you so much
That really touched me. Don’t judge me, I teared up at your words <3
I feel guilty for only providing a short sentence hA-
I hope I can express my appreciation : -
:<*
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You express it perfectly ^^ Dw, the unsaid says it all.
Love you, Es <3 -
I love you more 💛
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Some people on here make my blood boil. It’s hard to keep silent
(no, not anyone specific. just at times in general) -
Understandable ^
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I don’t want to go back to that sadness. The pain I felt was terrible, and I thought I left it behind long ago.
But it keeps taunting me. I keep tearing up even though I try to hold it back. I know people care, I know I’m loved; but still there’s a part of me that convinces me otherwise. I get so many compliments yet so many more accusations, body shaming (mainly because of growth), and negativity. In the mornings I’m in a bad mood, I don’t want to talk to any of my friends nor the people I love and care about. Instead I have my glare prepared to tell them to f—- off. I don’t like myself; it’s confusion, mixed emotions. I always regret my actions and my words, wishing I could’ve said something funnier, been kinder, been more intelligent, been more reliable. But what scares me the most is that we can’t change the past.
HEY
NO
YOU ARE AMAZING AND WE LOVE YOU 💛
*YEETS POSITIVITY AT YOU* -
I'm scared
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I feel violated, like someone's watching me even though I know it's just digitally
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I'm being targeted
I hate the sound of that
But I know it's true
All I can do is distract myself
I can't help myself -
please respond
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they aren't responding
it's been two days
any more time, i fear the future
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