Another Venting Thing
Thread Topic: Another Venting Thing
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I want to be a kid, but my parents dont
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Everything I missed as a kid, I’ll never get back again.
I’ll never know what going to one school my whole life like, or having a best friend since pre-school. I’ll never get to know what any of those things are like -
I want to play basketball. Every season that I play is the best part of my year. It’s the sound of dribbling and shooting, or hearing the buzzers and feeling all of that stuff when I play. It’s so loud but it’s quiet inside my head. Basketball’s the only sport I feel at home with.
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It’s become a big part of me and i kind of crave it. Like every time there’s a game, I don’t feel anything outside of playing. I have so much control over the basketball and it’s like the whole court is blurry when I’m running with it.
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And the breaks when the team huddles together to talk about how we’re gonna play. No one criticizes you if you manage to steal the ball
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This year I can’t play and it’s getting to me. The only way I can get my stress out is by playing it. I’m doing winter soccer this year and it’s not the same.
I have no control over the ball, everything’s with your feet instead of your arms. It’s the opposite of basketball. I really want to play basketball this year but there’s like 17 people trying out for the A and B teams. It’s not that I’m scared of not making the cut, I’m good with the game and I don’t have that pent up energy during the game. I can go all out and it’s so exhilarating and colorful.
Everything else is just gray and foggy until I get onto the court and the game’s about to start. It’s a feeling of my mind becoming clear and transitioning into the competitive mode. Then when I finally get switched out and I can watch the game up close -
I still have a crush on the same guy and I actually cannot stop 😭
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Do you ever look back and realize how horrible you were
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Looking back it’s like I would just try and get out of situation I didn’t like, without any regard for who I was leaving behind
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Or what I would say to get out of it
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I’m really sorry -
Ugh I need to cry I feel bad
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I just want to go home
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I feel really unsupported and unsafe
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I want to go back to a planned community and back to Cooper
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Everything is just GONE. Nothing’s the same and I can’t adjust to it
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