Das saD
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Thread Topic: Das saD
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*inhales*
I have a fear of being abandoned or replaced. When I was little, I had no friends. No one liked me (one of my friends was a HUGE brat and was friends with another one of my friends) and I learned how to play alone. My eldest sibling took me along with their friends because, well, I didn't have any. And then the girl who I used to call Prick came along.
She was an only child and pretty spoiled, but she was the only kid my age who liked me. I was a doormat and let her have her way, but she wasn't all rudeness and spoiled bratness. She was the only other kid who gave me her time and affection.
Then, Chatter and Coffee became my friends. Chatter and Prick (I'm gonna rename her Spunk) clashed and did not get along. But they always made things up eventually. Things were looking up for me, and Bean, who used to be a brat, became a lovely person and she and Energy became my friends too. It was perfect.
Until I began to struggle with my identity. Who was I? I felt like a hollow shell, taking on the forms and personalities of my friends' ideal companion. I felt like I wasn't me, that "me" wasn't a personality and I was just orbiting around everyone else. I adapted to become what the person liked best, and if I was with two different people, the fake personalities would mix and perform what they would want. -
And now I'm here. Hating my adapting aspect, terrified that people will cut me loose and abandon me, leaving me alone again, and clinging onto those who remain and trying to pour my love out on to them.
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I'm hopping offline for now. Good Time.
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*hugs* I will never abandon you.
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Thank you, Tat, I know you mean it ❤
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I was in a very depressed mood then wow
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Let's lighten things up, shall we?
IF YOU CAN SEE THIS I LOVE YOU ❤❤ -
Do I care what time it is? No.
Am I eating my entire bottle of pricy mints? Absolutely. -
Until I began to struggle with my identity. Who was I? I felt like a hollow shell, taking on the forms and personalities of my friends' ideal companion. I felt like I wasn't me, that "me" wasn't a personality and I was just orbiting around everyone else. I adapted to become what the person liked best, and if I was with two different people, the fake personalities would mix and perform what they would want.
First things first you’re amazing, take my word for it I never lie 🤫
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That’s not a bad thing. Everyone does it. At first you seem fake to yourself but it’s just your personality changing, it happens to everyone. I can’t describe it, but it’s a good thing. -
I completely agree with Chameleon
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Same
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Y'all 😭
I feel really bad about posting something so depressing, but thank you all very much, you're all previous lovelies and you hold special places in my heart ❤ -
You don't need to feel bad. We all need to let out our feelings <3
If you need us, we will be there -
*hugs* Thank you
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Sometimes I won't be myself so I can "appease" others and THAT. IS. NOT. OKIE DOKIE. So I'm working on it, in your face, Problems, you can't beat me >:)
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