Sometimes I think about all the bad stuff at once.
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Thread Topic: Sometimes I think about all the bad stuff at once.
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Ex. include
-things that have happened to me
-things people have done to me
-things that happen to the people around me
s--- like that.
And it all hits me once and where I was previously hsppy, I am upset and crying and a big mess. I don't know if this is normal but it seems to happen a lot and ugh. -
you know someone to talk to would be nice
i love you guys and when i have problems i trust at least one of you will help me -
late reply sorry sorry but ily you're awesome and sweet and amazing and deserve to be happy *hugs forever*
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-hugs lots-
i just cant talk to people irl
it's easier here
i just get so upset
gtq is like the close family i never had -
Happens to me all the time. Don't dwell on it though. I once made the mistake of refusing to (mentally) forgive someone and move on, and lashed out in the cruelest way possible. People are mean, people are ungrateful and people love to bring others down to make themselves feel better. Don't let them get to you.
But I've also learned. Before, I was such a people pleaser. You know, affable and all - I couldn't ever say no to anybody. I helped others who weren't grateful, who later turned on me. This really opens my eyes. You don't owe the world anything. You're here to live your life, not to constantly seek approval from others who are just as imperfect. -
It doesn't have to do with people being mean to me or me seeking approval. (I don't seek approval I just worry if they really like me.) I just get really down and it's hard to pick myself back up, but no one is really there for me besides me boyfriend, but he has his own problems. I can't burden him.
But I understand what you mean. It's cool how you think of it. I like the part about not oweing anything. -
Ahh I don't know what to say, I know I can't just fix this with pretty words or whatever, but if you need to rant I'm listening. Trust me, you have not seen socially awkward until you've met me, so I get what you said about it being hard to talk to people irl. It is hard, it sucks sometimes, but I'm sure your boyfriend cares and would like to help, and I like you~ Even if we talked and it was awkward I'd still know how sweet and smart and awesome you are, I'd still love you~ I wish I could help more, but just know gtq cares, mkay?
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Of course, I know. I guess I was inspired by my own burdens when I wrote that. It sounds like this depression, no matter how fleeting, is caused by your mental abilities. You're thinking about the past, "what people have done" to you too much. You're observing the your own experiences through a looking glass, and you feel the pressure is on your shoulders. That's why you feel sad. Just stop thinking about it. It's easier said than done, because your mind has the capability to turn into your worst enemy.
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@Lucky: aw shoot:')
im glad to know that you would be okay with it
Trust me, just being able to talk helps. Thank you for even taking the time.
@horse: Yeah, you're right. I'd love to just forget about the s--- but it always scratches at me and comes back. Trust me, I try, but it always manages to return. the stuff is pretty serious and I've talked about it to two users so far but I still don't feel like the weight is off my shoulders. -
I know what you mean. Just remember that you're not what they've said. You're who you choose to be when faced with that situation.
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I think the problem is that you're having intrusive, or unwanted thoughts.
If you've commited something bad, then you probably feel like you need to make amends for what you did. That's how I feel. That's how I get the guts to apologise. You feel unbalanced. The same goes for if someone has done you wrong. The reason why these thoughts keep coming back is because feel unbalanced, and by constantly thinking about it, you trick yourself into believing it can change, but the feeling is nothing but a delusion. There are some things better left in the past.
** ALSO I think this is worth reading:
Your problems won't go away by merely talking about it. You have to tackle your mental capabilites to stop these thoughts once and for all.
We don't know each other very well, but I think we're on some mutual understanding - at least, in this thread. If you ever need anyone to talk, to just vent it all out until it feels like the pressure's gone, then we can talk on here but I'd prefer it if you Kik me: cwtamity -
thanks for all of your help, guys
i really do appreciate it
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