Help me, please.
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Thread Topic: Help me, please.
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Seriously, though. Why can't I stop from ruining things from myself? I know I have self-control, but there are these urges I have to speak my mind. Which, clearly, is f---ed up beyond all repair.
I hope this doesn't sound too weird, but I have these voices or "thoughts" that get way out of hand and violent. Today someone cut my dad off while we were in the car. I secretly wanted him to ram that car in and hopefully smash up and kill those people. Yes. This isn't the first time this has happened. A lot of the time when I get pissed, I hope the person or thing that made me angry dies slowly and painfully, or something happens to them, like losing their limbs or being paralyzed. Most of the feeling is temporary and goes away after a couple hours and is usually shouldn't seem like that big of a deal, but I can't control it.
I also get offended extremely easily and feel helpless and want to cry whenever someone "burns" me or makes a good point in an argument. I feel like I'm not capable enough to match them and go into a bout of temporary depression and hope that delusions and daydreaming will help me feel better. I've considered self-harm and suicide but am too much of a wimp to try any of it.
My moods fluctuate way too often and I can go from happiness to anger to extreme bloodthirst. Or from contentment to sadness to despair. Sometimes I can go from sadness to happiness, but it's usually the other way around. I can't control these emotions and they can come randomly at any time, by any little thing that can just pop up out of no where. Like if I was really happy because someone made something for me, I can suddenly go to depression because someone else said that I wouldn't make a good moderator. Or when I think I did a good job on a drawing and suddenly it's insulted. It's the little things like this that can control my whole mood and day.
I'm also an extremely stressed out person and almost can't go one day without feeling a little bit of stress. Whether it's homework or something I forgot to do or even the fact that I have to go to school tomorrow. This will make my mood even worse.
I avoid people as much as I can in real life because they don't understand how I think. My parents or my family or the "friends" that I have can't help me. I'm anti-social and I isolate myself and I become embarrassed to share my thoughts with my real-life peers because then they'll think I'm weird.
I just...I'm more happy than I am sad, angry more than content. I have negative feelings most of the time. I don't feel like a good person. I feel horrible too much of the time. I try to say that everything will be okay and I'll try to be optimistic, but I'm always beat down by whatever is causing this. Why do I feel this way? -
I'm sorry, Br0wnie, but this one I can't help you with, mainly because I feel like 99.9% of this myself so....
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I don't know what to say about it because I'm the same way. I mostly take my mind off of it by thinking about ways to implement communism. Or by fantasizing about...uh....
As to the first thing, I think there's something about the taboo of the thought that makes me think about it.
And the second, it's because I think I've lost the battle, and when I've lost the battle, I've lost it for communism. And that's disturbing to me, because communism is the only reason I'm even alive (don't ask), and a successful stab at communism feels like a stab into my very heart---
this is probably not why you feel that way gonna shut up now and play Skyrim because this isn't helping. -
Thank you guys for trying to help..
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trying to look for self-pity
after you said you wanted me to doe
no f--- you
I don't care
I just wish you worse
K
thank you
Good day
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*and pity from other people
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*die
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Naturally it just looks like anger management issues, many things fall under anger, crying, hatred, jealousy all these can start with one thing, anger...
Like when I get angry I do feel like killing that person and at times I let out my frustrations on other people who didn't deserver it really but you just have to try and control, like when I get pissed I go and play games or talk to someone I like makes me feel better that is all I can say
Sorry that you feel this wayModerator -
I feel ya bro
It's things like this that got me to depression. Yes, it's hard to control it, I've been there. It's part of life. But when people insult instead of constructive criticism, which is better, tell. Who cares if you become the tattletale? It's NOT tattletaling and they will stop. If not, keep reporting until the situation is over.
I know you're probably gonna say you can't do that because your shy (not saying you are, but, y'know). If you are gonna say something like that, then I have one thing to say- stand up. If you aren't brave, then I can't help you. The only way you are gonna get through this is take the pain and have courage. You gotta remember life will not always be so s---ty. Things will change. And I promise you that. So I wish you the best of luck and keep trying. Struggles will come, so overcome them. -
*which is NOT better
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I would visit a therapist if I were you...the signs could be serious, you know
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Kai hime NewbieFirst of all, stop worrying that you are abnormal,dude. You are just a normal person, like many of us...and while, most of us don't talk about things like these and wear masks all the time('coz most of us are cowards), you have asked for help. I applaud you for that.
You have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and this quite normal. Remember one thing, we cannot control our thoughts, they are more powerful than us. But if you tire your thoughts, by thinking the same bad thought over and over, they will stop after some time. This way, you can control them. If your case is very severe, do not hesitate to visit a therapist. You can talk to him or her about your anger management issues too.
Remember, you are much better than you think you are. Doubt it? Reflect on how much good things you have done over the years. Acknowledge your talents....don't say that you don't have one. Everybody is talented: whether they sing beautifully or make people feel good about themselves. Explore yourself and your interests....increase your confidence. Love and accept yourself for who you are with all your strenghts and weaknesses. If somebody speaks or argues better than you, doesn't mean that he is better than you. We all are unique.
Your only problem is your anger. Focus on that. Remembet...nobody can help you unless you truly desire to change.
Hope I had been of help. And yeah...if you need a friend to share your problems with, don't hesitate to talk to me. -
^ i dont think she has ocd
Well if you're actually hearing voices then that might be quite serious and maybe you should talk to someone
Getting so angry about the car thing that you want him to be killed painfully, try to think from his point of view - maybe the guy just had a moment of anger or recklessness himself... remembering other people have feelings and make mistakes too might help.
It does sound like you're very stressed daily, so you could think about some of those things you could eliminate, cut down on or avoid.
I don't know what your day is like but is it really busy? If it is then try having more peaceful times when you're at home, and it should be time off the internet and away from screens (unless its something where you don't have to think e.g watching a movie or a non-stressful video game)
Sometimes you'll only realise how badly you need to stop beating yourself up when you get sick or are in great physical pain because in that moment you just want to physically feel OK. It makes you see things in perspective. Obviously I don't want you to get sick or be in pain, I'm just trying to give you an alternative view : ) -
Thank you all for the perspectives, I'll take the words in consideration.
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