I really want to tell my family that I'm a communist.
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Thread Topic: I really want to tell my family that I'm a communist.
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I KNOW STUPID RANT ABOUT STUPID ISSUES. DON'T READ AND DON'T REPLY IF YOU DON'T WANT TO.
I want to tell them because I keep having to watch what I say. It's quite annoying having to rethink every sentence and try to make it not sound too communist.
"Then just stop being a coward and tell them," you say.
Okay, I'm certainly scared of them. But that's not the main reason I haven't told them yet.
They're devout Christians. I used to be a Christian too, when I was impressionable and my main goal was to be like them. But I never had the same faith they did, and I questioned religion even when I would have never questioned the existence of the Christian God. They didn't know about this, though, and were proud of me.
They're liberals. They're very proud liberals. And while we can agree on criticizing conservatives, I would argue that liberalism is part of the bourgeois ideology. And they would joke. "What are you, a communist?"
They support Obama, I think he's a capitalist defender and an imperialist ruling-class puppet. They support the Pope, I think he's just another religious dupe (although he has some good ideas, they're nowhere near socialism- does he say anything about a worker's government or how religion is a tool of the ruling class?). They think Costco paying its workers more than Walmart is a good example of socialism and how Costco doesn't exploit its workers, I think I want to vomit and then explain why THE VERY RELATION OF EMPLOYER TO WORKER IS EXPLOITATION OF WORKERS.
They're anti-gay in a sickeningly soft way. They pretend to support gay rights, but that's a thin veil for what they really want. They say that homosexuality is "unnatural" and a "disease." But that's okay according to them, because they support gay marriage! It's just an inferior marriage between two diseased and mentally weak individuals, according to them! (Not that marriage between two individuals with diseases is inferior at all, it's just that they're treating it that way and homosexuality is not a disease.)
I managed to fake it for a while. I have them believing I'm a very moderate leftist who supports Christianity. I just don't say anything about gay rights other than that I'm for them. This way they think I support their backwards views with their thin veil of progressivism.
I was everything they wanted me to be.
BUT I'M NOT! I want to actually liberate the working class. I want to destroy capitalism, not modify it a bit AND STILL HAVE CAPITALISM. Class warfare, not class collaboration!
I'm tired of living their lie.
"But why do you not just say you're a communist and get done with it already?"
I don't because I'm sick of needless drama. It doesn't do anything for me or them or even communism for me to split the family this way. They've said terrible things about people like me right to my face. They just didn't know who they were really speaking to. And if I were to tell them, it would cause a huge void to open in the family. An elephant in the room every time I sat near them. They're so proud of me, moreso than anyone has ever been. It's what kept me going in my darkest hours, to have their support. If I lost it, I would lose almost half of my life.
But I've been more conscious. The person they're proud of isn't me, it's a lie.
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Wow... This is one of the greatest damn rants I've seen. Good job.
I... Don't know about 70% of what you said... Considering i hate politics altogether, but you described it well.
I know this doesn't matter at all, but... It's meaningless, but... I support you. -
Oh yay. I was hoping this wouldn't be seen as completely stupid.
The issue's not really that I'm annoyed that they have a different opinion than me, it's that I'm given the choice of lying to everyone or losing the thing that has kept me inspired to do anything.
I appreciate any support. -
I second that nomination for Favorite Rant.
Anyway, we're in like the exact same boat, except for me it's being an atheist. Well, unless I decide I'm a commie but yeah. I find no need to tell them because I figure they're judgment is s--- anyway if they're these crazy Christian b----es and s--- and who cares about their opinion. I might tell them one day when I move out and whatver but for now it doesn't even matter because their psycho opinions aren't going to change mine. The farthest I've gone is telling them I'm pro-choice, which they freaked the f--- out over >_>
Okay now I'm starting a whole different rant, but anyway if I were you...well I wouldn't tell them because I wouldn't care what they said. But I'm just one of those people that feels badass when I have secrets, and it seems like their opinions really matter to you, so...I'm not really sure what to tell you. I suppose you'll have to tell them at some point, but when that is is up to you I guess. -
For me it's also being an atheist as well as *actually* supporting homosexuals. The whole communist thing kind of covers those things as well, at least the type of communist ideology I follow. ("Communist ideology" and not "communism" because communism is pretty much the same no matter which way one goes there.)
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Ohhh okay.
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I also haven't come out to them about how I'm not exactly straight. I like men, but I like women too. And everything in between. Or outside. Or f--- it, none of that matters, I just like people.
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My god, your f---ing awesome.
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This is a tough situation. I feel for you. I know you don't want to disappoint your family, and you might be afraid of being disowned or spited. All I can say is live the lie and count down the days until you can move out. Maybe you won't see or talk to them as much. Then lying won't be as hard. You just have to not broach any subjects that will cause tension when you're around them. I'm sorry, but given your situation, that's the best I can do. I know exactly how you feel. It's the same with my being agnostic and liberal while my family is strongly Christian and conservative. I've thought about flat-out telling them what I am, at least so they'll know that all the times they start preaching their beliefs it makes me want to run from the room and never look at them again. I also can't. I don't think you or I are emotionally strong enough to handle the threat of rejection. I'm sorry. All I can suggest is to bite your lip and wait it out.
And, of course, Mari supports her lovely Communist friend. .w. -
If you're liberal, the bit about liberals wasn't meant to insult. I just hate it when they get confused with socialists.
But thanks guys. One of my worst fears is rejection, actually. -
Oh no, I'm not insulted. But thank you for considering it.
I know. I'm sorry I can't tell you to be brave or to suck it up and tell them. I know it's terrifying, and it feels like you're walking on eggshells all day. Like your own home isn't safe anymore. I know. I'm sorry, but under the circumstances, like I said, I'd have to suggest staying strong and waiting it out. -
Say you believe the same things they do but you believe in achieving them a different way. That's basically the difference between liberals and socialists anyway.
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