I'm just going to start typing and when I run out of things
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Thread Topic: I'm just going to start typing and when I run out of things
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So here I go, I guess the main thing I really have been thinking about lately is where I stand in life. I mean, I have a girlfriend, I'm in my last year of highschool, I've got plenty of friends, some interesting hobbies, and stuff to do to keep me busy. But yet at the same time, while people would think that this is a pretty nice place to be, I just gave the vaguest descriptions of each.
I have a girlfriend. I love her very much, but it is long distance. The fact is that if I tried to explain to most people I know that I am in a long distance relationship, they would look at me like a freak. The truth is, I actually prefer long distance relationships. Their more honest, cheaper, and usually last a lot longer than any face to face relationship I have. This doesn't mean that I never want to meet her, actually to the contrary I can't wait for the opportunity to meet her. I just meant that given the chance of meeting the girl of my dreams in person, or meeting her on a chat, I would pick the chat. I probably wouldn't talk to most of you if it weren't for the fact of chat systems. Even if I passed by you every day, I probably would never talk to you lovely people. That's just the way face to face communication works. We never talk to anyone.
But speaking of people I see on a daily basis, let's talk about my friends. I used to have a lot of female friends, but most of them dissapeared for one reason or another. I had Casey, Jazmine, Crystal, Bianca, and Charlene. (A lot of C names). Anyways, Casey and Charlene both turned in to whores and I haven't seen them a lot lately because they've been too busy spending time with guys who only want them for sex. Seeing as I was a friend and not a hormonal jock, I wasn't worth their time. And looking at them now, I'm kinda glad I wasn't. Jazmine moved to Texas, so I really can't blame her for that. But then again, she was becoming a b---- more and more frequently so I would be lying if I said I wasn't happy a little bit when she left. Bianca as it turns out only actually hung out with us because her other friends did. And since most of them have left, we're not worth her time. Crystal is the only one I talk to on a regular basis anymore. And while she's really introverted and hard to carry a conversation on with, she's also dealing with female problems. So she's always really emotional, always acting victimized, and actually a real downer to spend most days with. My final conclusion is that women are almost impossible to socialize with, EVER.
My guy friends include Johnny, Will, Devon, Tyler, Brian, B2 (another Brian), and Jake. Tyler and B2 are pretty well in the same boat. They're both a year younger than me, so finding classes we have together or hanging out is sometimes skewed by that slight age difference. Brian 1 is my age but also incredibly introverted. He is egotystical, and whilst I myself share a lot of those same qualities and would otherwise have no problem with him, we share a bad history so conversations are usually short lived. Will is a good Christian boy to most people. But I have known him long enough to see past his bluff. He is also secretly in a long distance relationship (she actually lives just south of mine. What a small world); so he's the only one I can really talk to about long distance relationships. He's a sports fan so that's another common interest we don't share, and he's also really innocent and not very self conscious when it comes to his actions. For example, there's a girl who likes to grab his nipple on a daily basis. We don't know why she does this, but we all still have to turn away when he decides to get revenge in the middle of class by turning to her and grabbing her nipple. He's so innocent that he doesn't even realize how inappropriate what he's doing is. But so's life. Johnny used to be my best friend, and when I was interested in the local dating scene he was my self proclaimed wing man. It wasn't until around a year ago that I realized that the only reason he wanted to help people find relationships was to feed off of the drama that they caused. So yeah, we don't talk much anymore. Devon is the only real friend I've got left. Him and I are like brothers. He's helped me out on countless things and I've returned the favor as much as possible. We both know practically everything about each others personal lives. And we keep a total honesty policy on everything. He really is my bro.
School is school. There's not really much to say about it. Senioritis is kicking in. that's the coined term for the symbolic disease when seniors all seem to get really lazy at the same time. I'm barely passing 4 of my classes. And the urge to do absolutely nothing is getting stronger every day. But I'm still hanging in, and am looking forward to a garunteed two more years minimum of this stuff. yey.
Most of my interesting hobbies consist of stuff I might be lucky to do once every couple of months. Truth be told, I'm actually pretty lonely on a regular basis. I sit at home and waste night after night playing video games, then coming here and spending hours typing to you all and my girlfriend. Then waking up the next day, poorly rested, and going to school. It's a vicious cycle, but it's one that has some qualities I can't give up. Mainly the productivity of being awake 20 hours a day. And the fact that it's the only way I can talk to Ting regularly. But even that is becoming more and more difficult because unlike me, she actually has a job. She's successfully busy on a regular basis. She has income and above all else, she doesn't totally hate her job. It's not a miserable place to work. I'd give anything to be able to claim the same...
So yeah, I guess this is somewhere between a TBH thread and a vent thread. If you read it all the way through, congratulations, I'll be happy to answer any questions you may have. If you didn't read all the way through, well then there's nothing distinguishing about this sentence to make you read it specifically so there's really no point in saying anything. Thank you all for reading, and I'll be here all week. -
Niecey Newbieseems like a mundane life to me
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pretty much.
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I can relate to some of those things. When people hit puberty they can go astonishingly strange. I have some sluts and straight out b----es at school who hate me. I have no idea why. Maybe because I'm a goody too shoes or maybe because I'm better at sport and school than them. Maybe if they actually tried instead of b----ing about everyone and sleeping around, they'd actally surprise everyone and their tiny slither of will power and brain power would be visible. Who knows?
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sounded very much like a diary....just saying chico
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sounds a lot like my life last year, but so much has changed since then, like its kinda hard to relate now. Like... I dont even feel like the me last year was me, if I described the way I think now to the me back then, it just wouldnt make sense.
I dunno if I can really give advice to get out of a dull senior-slide life, like thats how I was feeling last year (I'm a sr this year, but I'm at college full time), but there were a lot of specific events and occurances and situations in my life that helped me to change. So anything I say probably wont do much... Life has to influence you
But I guess, just push your way through senior year, college is more fun, more freedom. And maybe plan some sort of trip this summer, get out and go on an adventure, and try to meet people. Even before then, get out there and try to meet people. There are actually good people out there. At the beginning of this you said youve been thinking about where you stand in life, and relationships with others help you to know yourself. and being able to know who you are, what you like to do, who your friends are, then you just have to be able to accept yourself and you only can accept yourself when you know who you really are. If theres something about you that you wanna change, change it. cuz if you dont like something about yourself, then its not really you. but after that you'll be a happier person and not need anything extra to feel happy, just life. -
"Women are hard to socialize with"
Correction. All people are hard to socialize with. If you can socialize with it, they're going to make it hard.
As for getting lazy...yeah, I can get behind that. I'm a sophomore, but every third quarter in our school, grades drop for everyone. I had solid A's and B's and now I have solid C's and two A's. (Those two A's by the way, one is just an easy class and the other is one I'm really determined to get at least 95% in.)
I can't really respond to much of the rest though. I always feel guilty, like since you said so much I should say a lot in return.
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