My thread:3
Thread Topic: My thread:3
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"You're a real s---ty person, telling people lies and turning them against me just because I don't want to be your friend."
Name a lie I've told about you.
"You're using Jillian so that people can like you."
Not true. I speak to jill every single day. I have not made any new friends through her.
" I wasnt the one who went crawling back to her because I knew I was capable of growth! You, however, have not shown any signs of growth at all. You can say that you changed, but you will never change."
You're projecting. I don't really care if YOU think I've grown or not. Your views of me are irrelevant to my growth. I have all the validation I need from other sources.
"You'll always be so dependent on Jillian, because you love to feed off of others."
I depend of Jill for NOTHING but her friendship and support. I am not embarrassed of that.. That's what friends are for. To depend on each other.
" It'll always be the two of us tied to your abusive relationship."
We don't want you around anymore. What is between Jill and I is between Jill and I.
"You'll always stay stuck with your bad habits because you will always go back to the "easy path". You never take new routes. You never try new things at all!"
I am doing things to help myself, which you wouldn't know, because I DONT want you in my life. You don't matter to me.
"Stop pretending you care about her more than you lead on."
I care about her a lot. How much I love her is NONE of your business. I used to be obsessed with your approval because you always kept it just out of my reach. You used Carla to make me feel like I wasn't important to you. I didn't have to fight for her attention like that. She gave it willingly, so of course I sucked up to you to try and earn your affection. You call me manipulative, but again, you're projecting.
"You said it before, and I'm pretty sure she remembers every insult you told her. I dont know why you two are pretending like those insults were never exchanged"
Her and I actually talk about that often, not that it is ANY of your business. Don't worry, I haven't forgotten. Nor has she. We talk about it often but her and I have fully worked through the past and have left it behind us.
" but when it comes to me? Every bad thing I said as "Carla"? Yeah, let's not forget about that!"
Uhm, because you only RECENTLY admitted this! The wounds are fresh! And you gave a fake ass apology and I felt like I had to be okay with it! I couldn't speak up about how f---ed up what you did was, because I was SCARED to upset you. That alone is f---ed up. And now that I'm done with your bulls---, not that I see it all, no I will NOT keep my mouth shut. You played that game for years and years and years. Into your twenties. Yeah, it's f---ed up, and no I will not forget it. -
Apollo- Rose created two fake people to manipulate and bully Jill and I. You do not know the full story AT ALL. Just saying, you have NO CLUE what is happening here.
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"You're a real s---ty person, telling people lies and turning them against me just because I don't want to be your friend."
Name a lie I've told about you.
"You're using Jillian so that people can like you."
Not true. I speak to jill every single day. I have not made any new friends through her.
" I wasnt the one who went crawling back to her because I knew I was capable of growth! You, however, have not shown any signs of growth at all. You can say that you changed, but you will never change."
You're projecting. I don't really care if YOU think I've grown or not. Your views of me are irrelevant to my growth. I have all the validation I need from other sources.
"You'll always be so dependent on Jillian, because you love to feed off of others."
I depend of Jill for NOTHING but her friendship and support. I am not embarrassed of that.. That's what friends are for. To depend on each other.
" It'll always be the two of us tied to your abusive relationship."
We don't want you around anymore. What is between Jill and I is between Jill and I.
"You'll always stay stuck with your bad habits because you will always go back to the "easy path". You never take new routes. You never try new things at all!"
I am doing things to help myself, which you wouldn't know, because I DONT want you in my life. You don't matter to me.
"Stop pretending you care about her more than you lead on."
I care about her a lot. How much I love her is NONE of your business. I used to be obsessed with your approval because you always kept it just out of my reach. You used Carla to make me feel like I wasn't important to you. I didn't have to fight for her attention like that. She gave it willingly, so of course I sucked up to you to try and earn your affection. You call me manipulative, but again, you're projecting.
"You said it before, and I'm pretty sure she remembers every insult you told her. I dont know why you two are pretending like those insults were never exchanged"
Her and I actually talk about that often, not that it is ANY of your business. Don't worry, I haven't forgotten. Nor has she. We talk about it often but her and I have fully worked through the past and have left it behind us.
" but when it comes to me? Every bad thing I said as "Carla"? Yeah, let's not forget about that!"
Uhm, because you only RECENTLY admitted this! The wounds are fresh! And you gave a fake ass apology and I felt like I had to be okay with it! I couldn't speak up about how f---ed up what you did was, because I was SCARED to upset you. That alone is f---ed up. And now that I'm done with your bulls---, not that I see it all, no I will NOT keep my mouth shut. You played that game for years and years and years. Into your twenties. Yeah, it's f---ed up, and no I will not forget it.
Just in case you didnt see it. -
and there ya go. proof that you want to rally everyone against me.
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No, I just want them to know. They can make their own choices, once all the information is laid out in front of them. You only want them to see your narrative. You brag about how cool it was of you to do such a f---ed up thing, and for so many years. so.
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Rosio- I've been as well as I can be currently. I'm sure I'll be better in about a month or so though and hopefully I'll be able to travel again around that time too.
Chainsaw- And I admitted that I was confused at what was going on. There's multiple sides to every story, and all I saw was that Rosio seemed upset by something, so I decided to talk to her, but I'm not trying to insert myself into this. If y'all need to hash it out, then hash it out -
If me saying what you did makes people dislike you, maybe that's because of what you did and not because I'm bringing it to the light.
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I was never proud of what I did. I told y'all because I didnt wanted to hurt both of you anymore and I didnt wanted to continue lying to either of you. if the both of you weren't okay with me admitting the truth, why lie that you were? you're also telling people your side of the story, and I was completely booted out from the one place I could post clarification. unless thats why I was banned in the first place. so y'all can freely degrade me. that's why I have a problem.
@Megan, where to? -
thats funny because you also tend to worry about others not liking you. you're no saint and you specially have no room to scold me for my mistakes.
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Because I WAS SCARED THAT IF I SAID I WAS UPSET YOUD BE MAD AT ME. Because you manipulated me SO MUCH that I felt like I couldn't be upset with you! Because every single fight where I *TRIED* to stand up for myself LEAD TO YOU IGNORING ME FOR HOURS TO DAYS. And I loved you so much, I valued your friendship, I tried soooo hard.
I had nothing to do with you being banned. Nothing at all. I didn't even know about it until after it happened. And you were banned not so that we could talk s---, but because you were bragging about how much fun it was to fake being other people, how much more fun it was than having real friends. I was not allowed in any gtq groups when I made Jill uncomfortable, and you make SEVERAL people uncomfortable. That is why you were banned. -
I want to go up to the Smoky Mountains this summer and do some hiking. I hope to one day do the Triple Crown challenge which is completing the Appalachian Trail, Continental Divide, and the Pacific Crest Trail, so I gotta get into shape for that
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Yep. I'm insecure and I do care if others like me. That's why I try so hard to be a good person and make up for the mistakes I've made in the past. When I f--- up, I own up to it, and I do my goddamned best not to let it happen again. I fight demons each and every day due to my disorders.. And honestly, you should consider therapy, because it's obvious you have many demons of your own.
But unlike you I don't manipulate people into liking me. I am who I am. They can take it or leave it. Sure it sucks, I'd rather have people like me.. But I'm not going to pretend to be someone I'm not (literally in your case, lol). -
I would've taken your honesty than your lie. Even if I would've gotten angry. I know I can come off real aggressive and mean, and im sorry I made you two scared of me. I don't want my current friends to go through all that, and thats why im trying hard to fix the parts of me that f---ed up everything. you're making it seem like im not trying at all. like you said yourself, we both don't know. you don't know how I treat my friends, or whether im trying or not. ive owned up to the biggest lie ive ever made in my life. and im *not* ever doing it again. I was never boasting about my fake accounts at all. I was clearing posts because I hated the stuff I posted in them. im *not* manipulating people into liking me. my friends like me for me. I can get all of them to join this site just so they can express how they feel about me if thats what it takes. im not Carla. not anymore. im me.
I still don't get how I was banned just bc I was talking about my friends. ive never made any friends on my own. and I want to be able to express how happy I am that I have them as much as I could. thats no reason for me to get banned.
@Megan: that sounds like a lot of walking.... o^o didnt you say you were going to visit Japan or something? did you ever visited?? -
When you faked accounts for years you think people would believe some new accounts on the site that you say are your friends?
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I understand that, but why would I put out the truth, take all of these hits on how wrong it was for me (which trust me, it makes me feel like s---), and then go back to doing it again?
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