Any of my friendies?
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Thread Topic: Any of my friendies?
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;3; Lana needs to talk to you.
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Hephy is here.
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Ana: I am here. x3
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I is here
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I have some issues that are a bit overwhelming. I was wondering if I could talk it out with you guys to clear my head and get advice? It seems like something you'd be able to assist me with, if that's alright with you.
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It's fine.
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Of course, Lanai. *hugs*
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it's fine
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*hugs* Thanks.
Alright. Over the course of the past few years, I've noticed that my desire to be around other people has been quickly diminishing. The underlying cause is still unknown, but all I know is that my need for social attachment is becoming less and less. The energy needed to maintain healthy connections and "hold them up" just isn't in me anymore. I have one or two people with whom I can fully exert myself, but whenever presented with an opportunity to meet new people, I constantly find myself shying away. It's not because of not liking them or being judgmental, just that I sincerely despise people. It takes so much effort to keep in contact and up to date with everything, yet in the end it means nothing. All of the relationships with my former friends I had been working at building up for years were broken with just one simple sentence; one concerning my religion and apparent 'issues'. People are starting to bug me about the way I spend my time at dances. I sit out in the hallway and stare into space. The truth is, I have no need for the world around me. I have plenty shelter and "entertainment" within my own head. I find it hard to relate to others. I try, I just can't. I analyze everything and it's apparently a "repelling feature." I genuinely hate people in general. I can't handle all of the baggage that comes with being social. I'm capable of doing it, but I always find myself being disappointed or hurt as a result. This is partially why I'm leaving next month. I thought that by eliminating my time on here I can help myself build up some more bonds that I've let slacken over the years. But now, looking back on that decision, I'm starting to realize that it was a stupid one. I can't be myself anywhere but on here, and I need a way to express the real me, not some fake shell.
I don't initiate conversation, for it is too much of a burden. I'm constantly at a loss for words as to what to talk about with another. I am content with keeping my thoughts to myself. Now the puzzling part -- I love performing in front of people. I just don't like interacting with them. -
Lanai, I know what you're going through. Honestly, in real life I don't have any friends that are 'my age'. I'm usually either on my own, around my parents, or on here.
And you know, not being a social butterfly isn't a bad thing. You're a very laid back and fun friend. Friendship should be less about 'setting dates and doing a load of crap/drama' and more about just being thankful for the time we spend with others. You're a great friend even if you don't want to be social so often.
And please feel free to be the real you with us. I try to be the real me as much as I can. I'll be honest, I've gotten past a lot of road blocks in my life that have kept me from being happy and who I am. I simply don't care anymore what people think of me (as long as I'm being fair and foreright). I know it's hard growing up and trying to find yourself, but know that we love you and care about you. Here every step of the way, when you need us. -
I know where you're coming from, Lana. And I agree with what was said above.
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I pretty much know as well, and agree.
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I agree as well.
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Thanks, you guys. *huggles*
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welcomez *huggles back*
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