Hey Alana, I'm sorry I keep bothering you, But-
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Thread Topic: Hey Alana, I'm sorry I keep bothering you, But-
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(No... And o.e.......
I meant Alcohol withdrawal......)
"Nothing, Okay?! What are you? A cop?" -
(xD Not like that dude... And yeah, I was kidding :P)
I shook my head. "Just your average every day little sister looking after her older brother who just got attacked by his father the other day who gets ticked off when she mentions her boyfriend. Something's up with you. I think it has something to do with..." I wouldn't dare say it. Alcohol. -
(xD)
I sighed. "Okay, Whatever. I'm going back to our house, Okay? I'm going to clean it, Because It's a MESS,and Mom's hopefully gonna come out of the hospital soon. So, while you play tongue hockey with Ryan, I'll be home, Okay? Good. Now leave me the f---ing hell, ALONE." I went back to walking, But now I was frustrated and ready to snap someones neck. Either My own, or Ryans. -
I sighed and closed my eyes. It wasn't worth fighting about. I walked the other way and took out my cell. "New plan... I'll walk over. My brother's pissed. I'll be there in 20."
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Sometimes I wish I didn't have a sister. If it wasn't for HER, None of this wouldn't of happened. If she never had been with Ryan at Dane's Party, Nothing would've happened. Dad wouldn't be mad and psychotic, and Mom wouldn't be halfway dead.
I searched my jeans for my wallet, or whatever, and took out like.. twenty dollars. I got ina taxi (He's lazy XDDD), and Had him drive me home. -
A single tear ran down my cheek as I made my way to Ryan's. It was all my fault. Everything. If I was dead, it would be so much better for everyone. I knew what I had to do... After I talked to Ryan. A burden would be taken off everyone's shoulders.
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After a while I actually felt pretty bad about what I said to Sam. I mean, It wasn't all entirely her fault. If me and Dane didn't get drunk, This wouldn't of happened. It was both our faults.
And I had to to apologize. Crap. -
He greeted me on his front porch with a warm hug. He looked at me. "You've been crying... What's wrong?" We sat on the steps and I told him everything... except what I was planning.
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I started cledaning the kitchen, Because I was stalling. I knew what I wanted to do. But I didn't do it, For Sam.
I decided to call her. -
My phone rang in my pocket. "Hold on," I picked it up, wiping my face. I'd cried all through telling Ryan. "H-hello?" my voice cracked.
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"I'm Sorry... Sam. I... didn't mean it. And I'm sorry if I like... broke your heart... But I feel bad so... I'm sorry." I said akwardly. "I'm Just Frustrated, Y'know? I love you, Sam. I'm so sorry. But I'm glad that I''m your brother, and It's not your fualt I'm being a total Jerk. Nothing is your fault. Forgive me?"
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"I wasn't mad at you, ever. And yeah, I forgive you. Can you go check on Tammy? I'll be over there in 20. Bye." I hung up without thinking. "Everything okay?" he asked. "Yeah. But I've gotta go." I kissed him deeply; not the quick peck I normally do. "Is something -?" I shook my head. "Everything's fine." I smiled and squeezed his hand before walking away. This was going to be tough. Especially knowing what their reactions would be.
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their?
So, As I compulsively cleaned to kept myself from doing anything else, I sat down, Trying not to think. I felt butterflys in my stomach, and it bothered me. Like the feeling you get when your front teeth bite into a snocone, and a shiver runs down your spin and your stomach feels twisted. I felt like that. My palms were all sweaty T.T
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Yeah. As in Randy, Tammy, Dad (probably singing and rejoicing xD), Ryan, etc.
I went through methods in my head. Knife... too painful. Gun ... Too obvious. Jumping... They'd never find my body... I went through the whole thinking process by the time I reached our street. -
xD
I called Sam one more time. "Sam, I want to tell you something important..... So, Hurry up." I had a terrible feeling inside. Something isn't right...
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