Hey Alana, I'm sorry I keep bothering you, But-
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Thread Topic: Hey Alana, I'm sorry I keep bothering you, But-
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LOL.
I sat on the bed near the window, and Gazed out into the blackness. It bothered me that I even decided to get clean, when I really didn't want to. -
xD
"I'm gonna check out the lobby, kay?" I called to Tammy. "Be back by 10. There's a clock down there," she called back as I slipped out, letting the door clack shut behind me. -
I frowned. She had left. And I bet it was because of me
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"Agh..." I sat down on a couch near a window, the big fluffly kind. I hugged a pillow and my knees to my chest. Don't cry... Don't cry... Don't cry...
My phone vibrated. I had 17 freaking voice messages. From Guess Who. -
I'm such I horrible Brother! I can't belive I hurt my sister like this!
I sighed, And opened the bottle of wine. -
I listened to each and every one of them, each bringing more pain and hurt. I needed it. Hell, I deserved it. I had the volume at the lowest setting and his voice still pounded at me, like a chisel on a rock. Chip, chip, chip. My life was slowly chipping away. Or was it me who was slowly fading?
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I snapped, But had no way to let my anger out calmly, or by yelling. So I let it out the only other way I could, I mentally screamed at myself and drank glass after glass of whine until I was wasted.
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Three major quotes stood out to me from the messages.
1. YOU'RE A MISTAKE.
2. YOU DON'T DESERVE A f---ING LIFE, LET ALONE A FUTURE.
3. I'M ASHAMED TO BE YOUR FATHER. ANY b---- LIKE YOU IS NO DAUGHTER OF MINE.
I was starting to believe them. -
*A horrible
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"Oh, Boy, isn't this lovely~" I grinned stupidly. "Teeheeee, I can't wait till Sam see the room."
(LOL, He's sittin' in the bathtub, Drinking wine, talking to himself... He's so damn drunk.) -
(:O oh, schnap.)
I got an incoming call from him. "Hello?" the reception was bad, but I could guess what he was saying. One of the three quotes, or all of the above. "Dad. I gotta go. 'Night. Love you." I wish I wasn't lying through my teeth. -
My head was spinnin', But I was having a great time.
"Where Am I? Mom?" -
Cutted off my post T.T
Tammy walked in and frowned. 'Randy?' -
jesus christ, i'm sorry, but the italics in my previous post make me all teary eyed. D:
I didn't want to go back to the room. I'd pretty much hop into a car right now with my father if I had to. I didn't want to deal with anyone. I hated how my eyes always told my story. If you look long enough, you could probably know everything and anything about who I am. I hated it so god damn much. -
Dx I know.
She grabbed my arm and helped me up. "Gods gonna save me~" I raised my voice at the end of the sentence. She sat me on a bed and layed me down. "I love the flowers, they're soooo pretty!" I moaned, and grinned again.
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