hello world
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Thread Topic: hello world
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a lot has changed since I’ve been here
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I think I was 12 when I joined and lied about my age. sorry about that y’all
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It’s okay we forgive you
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I’m now in college. I’m still in my hometown, living at home, but it’s affordable (no rent + in state tuition + fafsa) and the city is big and offers a lot. I love TX and everything it has to offer, so I don’t feel stuck. I started uni about 4 years ago, feel in love with a narcissist, did a year of school, then lost my way for two years. As soon as I broke up with him, I got my s--- together. I finally got my license, got another job (as stated in my profile), and worked my way to get back into school. I switched from getting my BA in education to getting my BBA in economics and I love it. It’s been a year since I got back into uni, and I’ve really made progress. Went from Bs, Cs, and Ds to As and Bs, and all As this semester. I feel in love again last year around this time. He was my everything, my true love, a honest gentleman, provider, great communication, handsome, cute, hilarious, smart, athletic, loved the arts, you name it. We always went to the bar after work and it went from there. We became official in December, went to LA in May, Port A a few times in the summer, and NM a few months ago. We met each others friends and family, did a 5k together, talked about marriage, having a family, combing our future goals. I knew he always wanted to leave the country, he was inspired by his dad. He took the opportunity to get his teaching certificate in Costa Rica in January, and broke up with me on the 11th. He said he couldn’t be there for me emotionally, mentally. He was distant and snappy at the end of October. He said he loved me differently and was ashamed he didn’t tell me how he felt sooner. I wasn’t exactly 100% supportive of him leaving because I can’t leave yet, I looked into study abroad for the fall, but I also have limited funds. He thought he would just pack me up and live with him. We went on a double date last Tuesday as we were already broken up. He invited me over and I said yes. The next night I asked to see him and he said he thought it was best we didn’t and work on ourselves. I told him that I was happy where I was at and that that was a him problem. I went no contact this weekend because I can’t bear to cling on to any hope that he will allow me to have more time with him. I’m angry at him right now and just want to tell him “f--- you, you still haven’t told me the whole truth you avoidant f---. figure your s--- out before you speak to me again.” But I’ve accepted that we will never speak again. We might if he ever reaches out or comes home, but I won’t count on it. On the bright side this week, I had 2 friendsgivings, went to an amusement park, got inducted to a leadership honor society, and got elected as the treasurer of the economics society. I never once lost myself in the relationship, I kept in contact with my friends when I could, given the reality of adult relationships, I continued to excel in academia, and worked on my physical and mental health as much as I could. I’m not perfect, just a human trying my best. I think he doesn’t know who he is and is panicking about falling behind compared to his friends. He expressed this, and I told him that comparison is the their of joy, that we are all going to do things differently. He was not doing bad at life, he already had is degree, but wasn’t working in the field. He has a good paying job as a server and lives at home, I think it’s a sweet deal, in this economy. He isn’t as fiscally responsible as me, but I tried to give him tips since he had more disposable income. Any ways, I’m rambling into the void of my past. He wants the world and I can’t give him that.
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HI omg I kinda remember you
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oh god none of my old friends are on here. I only remember a few people, and only have one on snap still. and like 2-3 on Instagram, but we no longer talk. I only remembered this place bc I went through my yahoo and used to email friends when I was still under strict parental control 💀 anyways, how is everyone doing here? I’m just kinda ranting/talking to myself
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Site's a shell!! Love it
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really? are you the OG zero or did you acquire the account?
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ive had this account since 2012, wouldnt dream of giving it to anyone else
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fair enough. I saw a couple of people had given accounts away like Geek but I wasn’t certain. how’s life been for ya?
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lifes been a wreck, ngl
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oof do you wanna talk about it?
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I hate this CAP assignment but I’m almost done 😫 feeling lots of hate rn so maybe I should journal tonight. after I finish the assignment. and notes for mgt ugh, this part of the year sucks
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I think the best revenge would be to just keep succeeding. Get an internship with the Fed for the summer. Study abroad in the fall. Keep getting As. Find another internship maybe. Try to make more money w better time management and investments. Start working out again also w better time management. I’m over relationships. Breakups f---ing suck and they make me lose my appetite.
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dang alots happened
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