You Cant Wake Up
- Locked due to inactivity on Jan 2, '24 3:54am
Thread Topic: You Cant Wake Up
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ive had a decent break for a while yet it doesnt seem enough. im a social person but lately ive just been wanting people to leave me alone
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im not thinking much of it though, it might just be me forgetting to eat again since my symptoms when i dont eat are fairly mild. i cant depend on my body to tell me when i need to eat until the symptoms start, and at those times i barely even feel hungry
like ill get a really bad, throbbing migraine, ill get fatigued, my knees will feel weak, ill start shaking, i feel nauseous, i want people to leave me alone, and above all, all food sounds absolutely disgusting and at the time food doesnt FEEL like the problem, but it ends up being the main cause of the problem -
i keep forgetting to eat and i really need to make a time window of when and when not to eat
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feel like 6-10 pm would be a decent time window for breakfast, probably something small like some water and a kiwi or other fruit or smth
then i could eat at like 4-6 pm for dinner, just a basic meal that could at least replenish strength for the chores and exercises i do on a daily basis -
usually when that happens i blame it on water, but i think i do a decent job of hydrating myself throughout the day. i drink around 10 cups per day, maybe more if i feel nauseous or sick which is frequent, maybe less sometimes if im just not thirsty
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i hate these consistent colds, its almost like they never leave and they give me the worst mindsets to integrate into thin air
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im lucky im getting online schooled this year though, and if im not mistaken i discussed getting into an animation/art class to which my supervisor agreed. i dont think it'd be this year because the school in town sucks, but maybe when we move states there'll be a better school with a decent art class that doesn't teach you only how to make nose hairs and oily legs calling it 'abstract'
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there's an online animation school though, where you can be taught by pixar/disney/illumination/any other fancy name company thingamajig animator mentors
you have to be 18+ though which kinda sucks cuz i have enough money to pay off the monthly courses :( -
im so hyped to get older. right now im improving my skills and making decent habits because i know thats the only thing i can do with my time while i wait for legal rights put on age
in this case, im waiting for 16 so i can drop out of high school and get a GED. its not because school sucks, its because i believe the fundamentals of school sprout from elementary and middle school, where you're learning the basic properties of everything. but in high school, i think it should be like a 'pre-college', basically where you start focusing more on the career path you're gonna take/if you're unsure, your main hobbies because most people's hobbies correlate with their career for future reference. high school, in my perspective, is a waste of time solely for the purpose that you forget 90% of what you learn, and most of that 10% is from younger ages, ex. elementary school and middle school
i dont need to learn complicated agendas such as calculus, geometry, prose, biology, chemistry, etc. if it doesnt have anything to do what im going to do with my career for future reference. and if i did need to learn it, id be perfectly fine learning it in college or looking it up and taking notes -
might seem like id be 'wasting my time' by getting a GED since id have to wait until im 18 to do anything further than that, but i could spend those two years with a job. if the job is working well and i feel confident, i might get two jobs to speed up the money making process so i can save up for college and can get a bachelor's (my goal is master's, but bachelor's is a shorter time) degree in arts/animation. there's some decent colleges in mind, but i think i should stick my goals low and cheap for now since im not expecting to reincarnate into jeff bezos magically in those two years and make $2,537 per second lmao
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originally it was my goal to get an apartment first since you'd only need to save up 8,000-10,000 to be financially stable for one in an apartment, but i think i should switch up my goals to college first. if it doesnt work out, i can always shift plans
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i still have a lot of years in front of me before im 18 so im not concerned right now. it would be preferable if we moved states soon though since i rlly wanna get a job soon
cant get a job rn bc none of the places in town higher ppl under 16 or 15 and the pay literally sucks because its idaho bro 💀 -
potato land goofy money
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$36,511 is the 50% (average) percentile of annual income for idahoans (idk what we're called 😠mashed potatish potatians? omg holy scronch the potatish are coming with their skewers in hand to conquer the many lands), while $55,906 is the 50% (average) percentile of annual income for the state we're moving to
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that's a huge jump of money bc idaho f---ing sucks in their pay :']
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