Closure.
- Locked due to inactivity on Oct 24, '22 3:54am
Thread Topic: Closure.
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I'm making this thread for personal closure, and for any of my friends not in discord.
I will be leaving the site, I wasn't exactly active in the first place. Now I won't bore you, or try to place the blame on anyone, GTQ hasn't really been my home for a while now. I found a community that brings out the best in me. For me, GTQ has always brought out the worst in me, even when I make progress, somehow I unfurl the moment I come on here.
I become the worst version of myself while on here, and honestly I'm tired of it. I've always been aware, and taken accountability for my anger, though that doesn't change the fact that I never did anything to actually fix my anger. I'm a very petty person, and yeah I have been working on it.
I'm 19 now, and I joined at only 11.
GTQ was my outlet for dealing with abusive parents, and my chronic illness, so I think at some point it went from being a place to get support, to being a place to take my frustrations out on others.
I do genuinley apologise to the people I hurt, for no other reason than because they were there or because they said something I didn't like in that moment. Words mean nothing, but actions do, which is why I'll be leaving. There's no point in saying I'm getting better when I'm unwilling to let go of a community I no longer benefit or need.
A small, but loud part of myself wants to be angry, and to lash out at certain people. And I think, something that adds to that rage is I'm often evaluated alongside my friends, rather as a separate person. My mistakes are all my own. I'd like to reiterate, that I am only 19, and I'm very much still learning how to fit into the adult world, since lockdown stole my last few years of childhood.
The final few things I have to say, I find that a lot of us are very hypocritical on here. Myself included, something I'm hopeful to improve on, and have been working on. If you hold others to a standard, you've got to hold yourself to the exact same standard. If you want others to be civil and honest, then you've got to be civil and honest too.
I hope you all are able to bring the community together again, and have a great life ❤ 💜 💕 💙 💖 💗 ❤ 💜 💕 💙 💖 💗 ❤
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Tl;DR: I'm leaving the site, as I've done a lot of thinking about how I've bene using it as a safety net, and just allowing myself to continue a toxic cycle. I have a lot of growing up to do, and while I'm grateful for GTQ, I'm only going to be able to grow if I leave.
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Oh...
Bye Fifidee... -
Bye
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Sad to see you go. Take care ♡♡
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Ily so much /p
This chapter of your life may have ended, but there are so many more waiting to be written! I hope that you are able to fulfill the self growth that you're looking for.
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