I feel so freaking stupid
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Thread Topic: I feel so freaking stupid
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They're not electromagnetic fields.
They're from wearing glasses. -
Oh
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I do not comprehend
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Don't beat yourself up about it, hon. We all overlook the simple answers, at times. 😅
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So basically for a year or two I always thought I had two types of synesthesia. One where I could see temperature and one where I could see electromagnetic fields.
For the latter, I basically asked my mom why I was seeing colorful outlines around everything and she told me that they're electromagnetic fields. I think she just assumed this because both she and her dad are actually able to feel electromagnetic fields and so she probably just thought that I could see them.
Well the past couple days I started noticing how if I turned my head certain ways the colors would switch. Which didn't make sense if I was seeing these fields.
And then tonight I was looking at an object in front of a light and I commented on how when I moved my head the colors separated. My mom said something that basically added up to the fact that I wore glasses and that since she was wearing contacts it didn't work for her.
And that's when I realized what was actually going on.
I always felt so special when I saw the outlines because I thought they were electromagnetic fields and how rare I was to be able to see them.
And now I feel so completely and utterly stupid.
I still have the one where I can see temperature, but still. -
You're still special. You have so much going for you already; you should be proud!
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Yeah but that like topped the cake.
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You have projective synesthesia? That's super rare..
I have a lot of associative synesthesia types but projective synesthesia is one of the rarest kinds. -
Growing up not realizing you have synesthesia is something else. A lot of personality traits associated with hypersensitivity and empathy are heightened with synesthesia. As a kid I didn't understand why no one understood things the way that I did and then when I learned about synesthesia it all made so much more sense.
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I know you're not an egoistic person, but take a step back and look at what you're saying. You shouldn't let yourself feel so distraught because you had all these wonderful talents and a single one turned out to be nothing more than a literal illusion. The way you say that topped the cake–the way you act like it destroyed you as a whole for it to not actually be your gift–does that not sound even the slightest prideful or entitled?
What does it matter that you can't do one thing? If you have all these other gifts but can't do one thing, does it not seem ungrateful to be sore about it?
God gives everyone something, but no one will have everything. -
No, I don't exactly see anything when telling temperature. It's sort of like I can see the size of the air even though I can't actually see anything. So I'm pretty sure it's associative.
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When did you first realize you might have synesthesia?
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You're right. It was just a shock and I'm completely over-exaggerating everything to myself.
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I've had it for many years, but I only found out what it was about a year ago.
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I found out about that age as well. There's a really amazing clinical test you can take for free online to show what types you might have. I learned a lot about my forms through it
Here is the test. It's the synesthesia battery test and it's one of the primary tests used by researchers to gather information about the phenomenon
https:/ /synesthete.ircn.jp/home
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