only god knows I'm good
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Thread Topic: only god knows I'm good
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oh
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okay sober road you better remember this song idea
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...let's be real, sober road isn't going to remember it
it's time for me to put my thinking cap on and try to write -
f--- writing is hard
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all I can think about is a glass of milk
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the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water in the womb.
this phrase was my sleeping pill every night,
and I swallowed it dry,
wanted to choke until it had left me no choice but to remember it.
I spent so much time in my youth electing
counterfeit gods,
angels,
leaders,
parents
to my strange little pantheon of attempted found family.
the thing about putting a human being on a pedestal
is that someday, without fail, they will fall off.
life that goes on too long will always see a hero become an average person, or worse, a villain.
I went about my whole childhood like I was alone
and then, twenty years too late,
became aware of the fact that four other victims had been left
in the wake of your mistakes
played out in the form of a hasty marriage
became aware that their bodies were still lying in the snow on the battlefield that was the kitchen table in that house
and while I'd built an entire personality around depression, around loneliness and failure
you thrived
growing from the cracks in the pavement
into something beautiful, something sharp
growing in the darkness, strong enough to carry us all to safety
growing all alone, despite attempt after attempt to poison your roots
growing still, small, fighting for your life and your identity and I
see you all
I hope you know I'll always be here
for all the times I wasn't before -
we'll see if that holds up when I'm sober
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now... about that glass of milk.........
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I spend so much time expanding and organizing my collections that I never actually get to enjoy them
that's a little embarrassing -
oh. I was right. we're out of milk. if I were to die tonight I'd come back and haunt the place for sure.
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here are some sounds I like to make when I have my microphone out but I'm not doing anything intelligent:
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Wtf
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Very concerning.
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lmfao
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