Light of Dawn, Place of Dusk
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Thread Topic: Light of Dawn, Place of Dusk
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I don't even know what makes me think about this or feel this way. I just can't help it. Meanwhile, people sit on the sidelines, speculating like, "What's the matter with that b----?"
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who made you feel that way?
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Multiple people, in the past. Mainly family members.
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And so it leaves everyone to believe I'm crazy. They do things to me, I call them out, and they sweep it under the rug.
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Alright, then! I'm crazy. I'm bats--- insane!
You guys are perfectly fine! I'm the messed up one, here!
Maybe I wasn't before...but maybe I am now.
Hence my Raiden account. I can relate to him. -
Someone kill me.
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*BANNNGG!!!!!!!!* UR DEAD NOW!
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i think you take everything too seriously and overanalyze it. you’re simply to weak to be open and honest with them and it’s pretty obvious. you even told me you were too afraid a couple months ago. the only person to blame is yourself.
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*too weak
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No, that's a result of my past.
I used to be as rude as heck just to make a point across, but something happened along the way with the one person I cared the most about. They did this particular thing to me that made me lose the ability to assert myself. That's how I got to this state. -
so, you’re blaming this on someone else?
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No. I blame myself entirely, still. But I wasn't always like this. I didn't like the result of asserting myself. And even if I do it now, it still hurts. I don't like doing it, and I didn't then. It's just that I didn't have a problem with doing it back then.
When I try now, even if I'm really polite, my own parents and siblings walk all over me, putting me down and saying I have no right. -
if you don’t assert yourself, then you can’t expect things to “get better” for you.
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I know.
And I don't have an excuse for not doing it.
I'm just at odds with myself. I feel like I'm tearing into two separate people, and that's not good. -
If I were to get rid of all the things I do to play off the pain and problems of life, I wouldn't know who I am.
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