Feelin' Fresh
- Locked by Dark22978 on May 19, '20 5:37pmReason: Owner's request.
Thread Topic: Feelin' Fresh
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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Everything hurts. -
Aaaaaaand disappear.
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heyyy
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Hey, I'm going.
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going where
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I won't be here too long, so please no one mind me.
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I guess it's okay that it's like this. I mean, I should learn to be satisfied with whatever I get whether it's what I want or not. It's not always about me, and that's okay. I should be mindful of other people. Being depressed is not an excuse to ignore anyone else's feelings.
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I should be happy, I think.
Maybe I'm a diva. I try not to be, but I feel like I am. But, I'm highly emotional. I've always been that way. I don't like it. It will be the death of me. -
I would love to be anyone else who's not me. I'm a very defected person. Maybe fake Boss Baby was right. Something IS wrong with my personality.
And I'm always obsessing. Why? No one obsesses about me and what I'm doing! I have the worst habits to cope with it. Day and night I scratch myself up, angry that I couldn't be prettier. It doesn't help, and I know it, but I can't stop doing it.
Being alive grieves me. -
I can't believe I sit here and fill my thread with depressing facts. I need to let it out, though. Better here than anywhere else. I can't even trust to put something like this down in my journal. My parents are so nosy that they skim through that too.
I shall never have privacy. And needless to say, my journal is full of half-truths on how my day went, unimportant events, or random facts that have nothing to do with anything. -
Obsessing endlessly over every detail in life. I can't stop doing it, so I'm here doing it. No one's thinking about me, so I need to just stop!
I despise myself for how often I wonder about everyone and everything! I need to just leave them alone! Stop trying to include myself in so much.
It all stresses me so deeply. -
I guess I just don't want to be alone, but doing this will get me just that. I try too hard in everything, yet in the end, it seems I never try hard enough. I want to do things to help, but I don't feel that what I'm doing is helping anyone else.
What am I doing aside from tearing myself apart? I take up space in the world. I don't want to take up space in the world. I don't want to be here. Why doesn't anyone get a choice? I didn't ask to be born. I would not have wanted to be born had I known this is where I'd be for the rest of my life. -
Can someone dig a hole for me? I'll climb inside, but you have to bury me.
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I guess I'm just trying to figure out what to do in life and how to execute it. I'm not good at that.
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