My official thread
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Thread Topic: My official thread
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i'm preety sure its the bone
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Oh that sucks sorry
I hope you feel better soon -
How can someone act so mean and cold to you and then act like nothing is wrong?
He doesn't even want to hear my side of the story
He treats her more like a sister than me. I am his actual f---ing sister.
He says horrible things to me and then asks what's wrong as if it isn't obvious. -
I tried to talk it out
I tried to be civil
He doesn't care.
He is just like mom and dad
I try to be a good sister
But he is not interested and then blames me for "ignoring" him
And when I don't ignore him
He pushes me away and treats me like nothing -
I kept swimming toawrds him before I got anywhere
And when I did
He broke my heart again
So I asked him if he wanted to hear my side of the story
He said he doesn't care for my side
He thinks he knows everything about me and that I know nothing about him
While it is true that I don't know everything about him
He knows very little of me -
If he knew the reason I was away was because I tried to kill myself
Would he still treat me like I'm living the dream?
If he knew how much manipulation and pain our parents caused me
Would he still like to treat me like the golden child? -
If he knew the real me he might be a lot nicer
But I kept all of my pain away from him because I didn't want him to worry. I went through most of everything alone because I wanted to hide the truth to protect my brothers.
Because I love both of them so damn much
But he can't even be kind to me
That's too much for him -
I've tried for years to gain his approval
And he has said things and did things you shouldn't to your older sister
Every insecurity I ever had
He'd use against me but if I get mad and call him fat
Then I'm the bad guy
Its ok for him to call me things
But if I say one thing on accident I'm the mean one -
My favorite insult is when he says dad wanted a boy instead of me because I don't act girly.
Or when he calls me a whore, a slut, a b----, a jackass, fat, a dumb---, puts up his middle finger at me, tells me to kill myself, compares me to a boy, ect.
I know that doesn't sound that bad but it hurts
He calls me a whore so much that now my little brother calls me a whore too
But that's totally okay -
But like
I haven't even had my first kiss -
I try to help him so we can have a better relationship
But he doesn't want one
He doesn't care for my side of the story
After I listened to him
Every time I listen to him
But I am the toxic one
And its MY fault we can't get along
I am the neglectful one
Its always me
It can never be him -
He makes me suicidal tbh
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Its like I'm never good enough
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Well, there's my crying fit of the day
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