Horse's offical thread!!!!!!!
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Thread Topic: Horse's offical thread!!!!!!!
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OHHHH me too me too
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God am I just not enough?
excuse my little rant if you don't care and f--- off while you are at it~~~
I don't get it. You tell me I'm beautiful and I'm everything you ever wanted. Yes I told you in the beginning I have issues, I struggle with anorexia, depression, all that but you told me you would take care of me, where are you f---ing now? You came and watched me at volleyball and softball practice and flirted with me all day long everyday then all of a sudden you stop talking to me because you f---ing like someone else now. Yes I get the fact I'm the new popular savage badass girl according to everyone else doesn't mean I don't have f---ing feelings like damn, yeah I have low self esteem and I don't know why I f---ing do because I get asked in public on a daily basis who I model for and usually they guess a high end brand. Yes I am a good singer and play guitar, yes I barrel race with horses, yes I do show jumping, yes I play volleyball, softball, and yes I do track, but you know out of my schedule I made time to think about you to go to the movies with you and you just f---ing loose feelings in a day like damn I would have been fine if you told me in person and didn't just ignore me out of the blue making me think I did something wrong. You could have just said "I'm sorry I don't think this will work out" and I would have been okay, but you f---ING ignored me like I was like the f---ing black plague. Of course it also had to be my f---ing best friend I first met when I moved to this new school and she don't even like you back and she has told you that. For God's sake she has a damn boyfriend. I could give you the care and love you want and need but you cant take what you get can you? IM right here in front of your face. Why? that is my one question, why? f---ing why? I have plenty of options of guys who like me, but yet I got caught up on you. Wow and I cant let you go, and it hurts. -
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sorry Mac not gonna be on the stage tonight, I'm f---ing pissed as hell and upset
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Not today
Nope.sorry
I can't be a therapist today
We are all in hell and fighting different levels. I try to deal with other difficulties first then my own, but I cry when I wake up sometimes and I cry after school and want to cry now. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm giving up. I don't have the will to cut my arms, but IR started letting my dig jump on me and scratch me just for a moment if feeling that isn't sadness. Just a pinch. Next time a get a razor for "shaving" i know what I deserve.
But forget all that!!!
Forget him. If he's gonna be like that he isn't worth it. Boys aren't worth it. People in general are not worth it. Be you. If you don't want to be a bad*as the don't be. If yo don't want to be popular don't be. Be you be what you want go be -
its not just that my depression and anorexia has cam eback I had a relapse
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Honestly I want to just f--- off and deal with my own damned problems. I really do. But you need someone. So ill stay and try.
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Mac is right tho. f--- them, do you.
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Nah its okay, you just do what you want I understand that :) and yeah. I just don't get why I'm so screwed up
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No
Dude
I won't leave -
No, if you have something better to do then do it, I'm not that important plus wouldn't be the first time I've been in this situation :)
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The only thing I have better to do is kill myself. But I can name one reason why I won't.
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Well one damn reason you cant Is me, you have so many opportunities in your life
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