Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
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Thread Topic: Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
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My head is killing me
I'm just going to eat some chips and play FFX screw this -
My head dude
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Do you have any kind of medicine for that in your house?
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Sorry. I'm the worst at replying.
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My throat is slightly sore
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Maybe, just maybe, a little part of me was hoping she'd like it. Be impressed, even. At least care.
But you know, she didn't even hug me. She barely said anything. She just vaguely said"Thanks" and waved me away to bring my sister in. I even said, "I made it myself." she just half-heartedly thanked me again and returned her attention to my sister. I did reach out a little that day. So she needs to stop victimizing herself and acting like I just hate her for no reason and I don't even try. I've given her so. Many. Chances. It's a ridiculous pattern. She acts nice to gain my favour for like what, a week or two? Then she shows her true nature again. Everyone says, "It seems like she's trying." Trying what? The only thing she's "trying" to do is fool everyone. I'm not giving her any more chances, ever again.
Therapists like to say, "Maybe you should write your mom a letter telling her how you feel." I usually say "oh i might do that", but I know that I won't. My mom is too f---ed up by drugs and whatever emotional problems she has. She wouldn't understand. My mom probably doesn't even know what "love" is. I would say I hated her as a kid, and I remember every time, she would back me up onto my bed and beat me (usually with a belt, hanger, or brush) until I said I loved her again. That is not love. Every time she did that, when she left, I would just curl up crying and whispering "I hate her" over and over again. My mom doesn't understand feelings like love. -
Shouldn't you be calling someone? That's abuse and that's not okay and you don't deserve that.
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I don't live with her anymore. It's already too late. I wish someone would have told me when I was younger.
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Oh, my bad. I'm still upset that happened to you. At least you aren't with someone like that at this point. Well, I hope you aren't. You don't deserve that. You really don't.
If you ever want to talk about something, you have my Kik. I know I don't pop in here often but I do care about you and to see you reflect like this.. -
Thanks for your support. I always rant about my mom. I guess I want some closure or something. Like ranting about it will help.
I'm playing a game and it has some parental stuff in it and that kind of, I guess, "triggered" me a little. But I'm fine. So don't be worried -
Ranting about an issue is better than keeping it in. If you keep it in, it tears at you and makes your emotional stance worse.
Ahh. Yeah, games do things like that. What game? -
I'm going to clean the apartment and see if that helps.
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Final Fantasy X. It's a great game. You should play it sometime.
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Good luck cleaning!
I've been wanting to start at the very first FF game. Isn't there over ten games in the series? -
yeah there's a lot of games
I played the very first one and I didn't like it. I tried VIIi but I couldn't get into it. IX is wonderful, I'm75% done with it. X is really good, I started it last weekend.
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