Batman's Cave
Thread Topic: Batman's Cave
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this is hella late but are you okay
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Not really....no.
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Do you need someone to talk to?
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Yes please.
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Alright. I'm here. Why don't you tell me about some of the things making you feel the way you do?
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Well it is actually a series of events. A series of events that decide to slowly unleash Hell on everyone in its wake. Evidently, I'm the only person who its wrath has reached.
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I see. Sometimes, we can let ourselves focus too much on the negative, so let's talk about some things that make you happy. What gets you excited?
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When I write, when I'm finally away from my family....
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Writing is good. It can help release stress. Writing can help you get away. Actually, the paragraph you wrote was really pretty. I think you're talented. Do you plan to be a writer?
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Thank you, I just vented, and that was the turn out. Yes, actually I do plan on being a published author.
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I think you have a future with writing. But you have to stay alive. So please stay alive. And when you're published, you can forget about your family. You'll be successful, with your experiences only making you stronger. You'll be a better person. Besides, I for one definitely want a chance to read your novels one day. All your pain will surely only make more beautiful art.
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I am not sure I can last longer in this raging Hell, although I would wish to. I am not certain I will be able to....
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You will. You're strong. I can see that. Anyone can. You're strong, and you'll only get stronger. It seems impossible now, I know, but you'll make it through. You'll look back and wonder why you were so worried. I believe that.
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How can you be so sure? You see I have things on my body. I am fully aware what I have on my body. Yes I am ashamed of it, oh Hell yes I am ashamed of it. More or less.just disgusted. Disgusted at the fact that I live with that every single day of my life. Marking my body as if its theirs. Not mine. Across my arms and thighs like stripes. Zebra stripes. Scarring my body. Everywhere I go they are with me. Whether I want them to or not.
I find it absolutely hilarious when I tell someone about them, and they decide to rebutle back with, You need to find a more human way to cope.. Ive been told Im disgusting/revolting. Ha! Its not as if I chose this life. That one day I just got bored and decided what fun it would be to snag a knife and dig it into my arm as if Im digging for China. Nope. I distinctly remember the first time: I was about seven---such a young age for doing such things---, and I had an I <3 Boobies bracelet. It was a blue-green color if I remember correctly. Anyhow, I loved putting the lettering facing my arm as I pull it as far as it can possibly go up my arm. Then I would leave it there, for.about twenty minutes. Possibly thirty. This type of work was quite melticulous, in this case, patience is absolutely a virture. Evidently that was a virture I did not have. I would get impatient as Hell. Id scratch at it. Pull the band up higher, and keep it there until the tips of my fingers grew ice cold. I would then decide to take the band off, staring at the imprinting of I <3 Boobies on the inside of my forearm. After I exaimed my work, I decided to scratch, and scratch, and scratch. Until bumps were appearing on my arm, until my arm grew raw.
Sad thing is.I enjoyed the pain. No...I loved it. No...I adored it. I grew obsessed. I kept doing it more and more. Possibly at least fifty times a day. Continuing and continuing. I persisted, bringing it higher and higher until one time I had it on my bicep. I was absolutely terrified to tell anyone of this. It was my own little secret. My most prized possession, and I wasnt sure I would be able to handle my prize to be taken away. So my refusal to tell a soul caused it to worsen. Until finally I went to the knives. -
As you begin to explore the world more and grow outside of your bubble, you will discover that there is more than pain. I can be so sure because I myself have observed such cases as yours.
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