Batman's Cave
Thread Topic: Batman's Cave
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Gale NewbieWelp gtg
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(OH)
Okie. Bye bye. -
so he interesting right.
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Yah. Kills a lot.
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yep
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I wanna curl up in a ball.
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*frowns*
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Just curl up and wait for Hell to pass.
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*hugs*
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*hugs back* ......
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I don't know what is wrong. I just don't feel well. My chest hurts. My mouth is dry, but my eyes aren't.
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You are crying then. Tell me what's on your mind.
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I thought I've been feeling better. I'm clean. It's been a week or two. But that's something new, I guess.
I ate a lot last night, I thought I deserved to eat, just a bit, but I didn't realize how hungry I was. Now I'm just disgusted really. I'm disappointed in myself. I've been trying to not eat. To lose all of this weight. I don't want to be like my mom, 39 years old. Still trying to lose the weight. And going to extreme lengths. I don't want to be like that. But what else is there?
I just feel weak. Every morning on my way to school I tell myself that it's going to be different. I'll do what I did at Whiteland, and just say I don't eat at school. But it never lasts. I grow weaker, and when I'm walking home I say I won't eat anything. I won't eat anything when I get home. I'll try to go to the weight room in my complex. I'll go on a run when I walk Bentley.
But I fall in the same mistakes. -
I'm disappointed I can't last longer. Maybe if I don't cry then I won't feel anything?
I'm sick of worrying about my size. A f---ing nine. That's what I am. And I hate it. I hate having to see myself almost going in double digits. I don't want it. But it's hard. Harder than anyone would think. To constantly fight off the urge to eat until I puke. -
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